Nefarious

I waited for you, so why couldn't you?

"Jen. Jen!" A whisper slaps me awake, my eyes blur for a few seconds before they finally adjust to the dim lighting

I open my eyes and instantly throw myself at Bambam, not caring about the tears flowing

"I missed you, i love you so much bam" I whimper into his shirt, eyes shut tightly

"I know. But I have something to tell you" He says, and I feel my heart drop slightly as I pull away and see his grave stricken face

"w-what?"

He takes a deep breath and looks down at the floor.

"Li-lisa's dating someone"

I sit there and look at him. Waiting for the obvious punchline.

Silence

I laugh slightly and shake his shoulder gently

"Come on man, don't play like that." I say, voice trembling slightly

She wouldn't give up on me.

But then I remember. She's not actually mine anymore.

She broke up with me a while ago, yet here I was holding onto the weak hope that she would take it back. 

Take me back. 

I swallow deeply and nod my head.

"o-okay. can you leave and get Adelpha"

Forget it.

Bambam looks up at me and his eyes narrow in confusion

"Wh-why?"

I shake my head and smile slightly

"We need to talk, it's been too much recently and I'm getting bored of this room"

He nods and lets go of me, kissing my forehead gently before he disappears

Forget her.

I hold the side of my head, trying to stop the tears from falling

"You wanted- are you okay?" Adelpha asks, rushing towards me

"You did this didn't you?" I accuse weakly

"Did what? What's wrong?"

I push her onto the floor and glare at her, emotions all over the place as I rant

"You did this! You made me leave her! Your the reason why I can't have anything good in my entire fucking life! And for what? For me to be your little puppet? Something you can show off when your mommy comes around?!"

She looks at me in confusion and shakes her head gently

"n-no"

Weak. She's weak Jennie.

I bend down next to her and grab her shirt, eyes staring into hers. 

So easy to get lost in them. But I won't. 

"I hate you." I spit 

She nods her head, tears slightly pooling in her eyes

"I know." she whispers. 

In a matter of seconds her lips attach to mine, dancing with each other for a good minute before I pull away

Lisa.

Lisa left you.

Lisa doesn't love you anymore

Lisa doesn't need you anymore

"You have to move on Jen, or I'll never let you out of this place" Adelpha taunts, eyes darkening with lust

"So what? If I fuck you I can leave this room?"

"If you fuck me you'll  never want anyone again."

I close my eyes and take a deep breath

"But. . . if your willing to do this, what was yesterday all about?"

Her words crack me out of my little state

"That was attempted rape. I didn't want that, I don't want this!"

Her brown eyes glisten with hatred as she smirks

"You just wanted Lisa. Well I'm sorry baby girl, I'm not her."

Her lips hover over mine, and I don't find myself moving away. Maybe it's the familiar honey on her lips, or the scent of  mint on her skin, but I can't move

"I'm 10 times better" she whispers seductively as she places her lips on mine.

Forget her.

a/n ooooo y'all are gonna hate me in this book lmao. . . .  the next chapter especially.