Nefarious

What the hell is wrong with me?

A sharp knocking of my door brings me out of my half arsed  sleep. 

Not like I've been getting any since I left Lisa.

I sigh and sit up, not caring that I'm only in a sports bra and shorts. I hope its one of my brothers, I haven't seen them since she electrified me. 

Which was at least 2 weeks ago Kim. We've been counting

I sigh and rub my head slightly, my sub conscious is a prick.

The door opens to reveal a sad looking Adelpha. 

She looks like shit

Her eyes are a dim shade of brown, as if someone had drained her off her engery, underneath her round eyes are dark circles, as if she hadn't slept in days. Her lips are hung into a tight worn out half smile as she looks everywhere but me

I hate that I know this

"Where's the wound?" I ask, voice devoid of any emotion

She looks at me and I try to ignore the faint blush  that coats her cheeks as I beckon her over.

Sighing she stands in front of me and touches her stomach loosely

"I- I know that you hate me, and you probably don't even wanna see me right now, but there was no one else. Your brothers are out on tasks so I didn't wanna call them all the way back"

I scoff and look at the blank walls

"Why come to me? For all you know I could beat the shit out of you if I wanted to"

She says nothing, and I huff before reaching under the bed for the medic supplies. Wordlessly she pull off her t-shirt, revealing her toned stomach with a semi large, probably not too deep gash along it.

The wound is jagged and purple around the edges, as if it was bruised.

I wonder what happened?

She sits on the bed next to me but I stand up, pulling her up with me. Giving me a confused look she asks

"What?"

"I need to wrap your stomach, so sitting wont make it better" I say obviously.

She seems to get it and stands completely still.

As I wrap the bandage, I can't help but compare her and Lisa's skin. 

Her's is rougher than Lisa's, but it's not too rough. Her skin almost reminds me of a comforter with a sheet covering it.

I silently finish wrapping her stomach and seal the wound with some tape before laying back down, not bothering to put the supplies back.

"You can go now" I say harshly, not getting why she's still here.

"Jen, I think we need to talk. This isn't working and you know it" She states

I turn over and look at her, anger pouring out of my mouth the second it opens

"So what? What do we need to talk about? How you keeping me in this tiny ass room? How your blackmailing and harming me into staying here? How you keep ripping me away from the things and people I love, just so that you can see me every now and again? Cause if that' what your talking about then I don't wanna hear it!" I shout, unsure when the tears began to flow.

Adelpha bends down and looks at me, guilt and sadness swirling in her dark eyes. She wipes a stray tear off my face and holds my cheek

Move her.

I want to move her hand away, to push her away, shout and scream at her till my throats bloody and my eyes are burning from the salty tears. 

But I can't

"I'm sorry. I was told to do this Jennie, you have to understand. Mom's practically forcing me to do this"

"You don't have to listen." I whisper pitifully

She places a soft kiss on my forehead, but it comes off as motherly affection

"I'm sorry."

She looks at me once more before getting up and leaving me alone in this shitty room.

Only 3 more weeks. 3 more weeks and we'll be able to go out again.

But I won't be able to see Lisa.

I sigh and lay on my back, hands covering my face as I attempt to drone out my thoughts and memories of waking up next to Lisa

a/n okay this book will probably have a lot more angst in it. . .  Special Chapter coming soon!