Nefarious

I'm talking deep rooted trauma (M)

a/n tryin my hand at smut again :p 

I wince as the ice pack is pressed against my stomach, while reaching over to grab the other ice pack for my eye

"So you couldn't just stop shadow transporting?" Jisoo asks sarcastically as she gently massages Bambam's back

"It's not our fault he closed the portal!" Bambam argues

"But it is your fault that Jennie and her dad had an all out magic battle after" Chaeyoung presses

Lisa makes a sound of agreement as she rubs my hand comfortingly

"He should've kept his little spells to himself then" I mutter under my breath

Too bad he didn't teach me those when I really needed it. Like when my ass was being handed to me by a fucking gargoyle.

"Jen you literally tried to blow him up" Lisa points out

Considering he left me to die just to save his own ass, I'd consider that mercy.

"And? That's nice considering what I was go beat him into a pulp" I mutter, loud enough for someone to hear

"Ah yes, because you've had so much experience with that haven't you my daughter"

What?

The room goes silent as Father comment swirls around in my stomach

And whose fault is that? I asked for help and he didn't give me anything except for a couple years of faint protection!

Bambam looks at Father with a slightly dirty look

"What do you mean by that?"

Father looks around nervously as his eyes meet mine. 

He's worried I'll tell them. Tell them that he's full of shit

"Well she was a late developer, so all those times in the sparring courts with you and Kevin insured her getting a few good beatings here and now" He smoothly covers up

Bambam nods, but he doesn't look convinced.

"Nini, I want you to know this now. She will never EVER put her hands on you again? Understand baby?"

I blink back a few stray tears of anger as I push myself up, ignoring the very very painful sparks in my leg

He said never, yet she's still here, wrapping her claws around my neck

"Maybe if you weren't such a damn burden I wouldn't have to run! Did you ever stop to think, that your constant clingyiness is overbearing?"

"I-I'm gonna head to my room" I croak out, shadow transporting on the spot straight into my room.

I sit on the floor, head in hands as I try to control my breathing, tears falling out of my eyes

Not even my own father can help me.

I came here and for what? To show him how much of a failure I am? That no matter what happens he left me when I needed him the most?

His body falls limp, and I remove my fingers from his neck, watching as his pale lifeless body falls heavily to the ground. Blood spills from the gaping holes in his neck, the different layers of raw flesh and the white bone fill my eyes, and all I can do is smile

That's why he left me

That's why they'll all leave me

I feel the sobs racking from my mouth as I try to hold them in with my palm. I shut my eyes tight as I try and stop the familiar chill and tightening on my chest