𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟 ~ 𝐾𝑎𝑟𝑙 𝐽𝑎𝑐𝑜𝑏𝑠

Chapter 28: 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑒

TW: Sexual assault, Self Harm, Bullying,  Suicidal thoughts
This is my first time writing an angst chapter and I really don't know how to write one that well and I don't have too much experience with the TW's so please correct me if I say something wrong <3

"nobody cares about you anymore."
"You are ugly anyways"
"they don't care, they don't love you, they are only using you, they don't need you anyways"
"you can end it, just do it. It's not like someone will care."

I sit in the bathroom, sobbing on my knees.
The bullying has been so much worse lately and even my "friends" have been acting strange lately.

Do they really care? Or are they only friends with me out of pity?

No, they don't care.

"Sweetie, are you okay? You have been in the bathroom for a while now.", I hear my mouthed shout for me, I couldn't open my mouth and my throat was sore.

"Yes mum!" I try my best to shout back. She luckily understood so she walked away.

I have been getting more and more panic attacks and I don't know what to do anymore.

"No wonder nobody likes you, you are SO ugly. Guys look at her"
"We don't actually like you. We never did. We just felt bad about you but now you're just being overdramatic. Goodbye Melanie"

They wouldn't leave me right?

They would..

Calming myself down was harder than ever but I managed to do it. Looking at myself in the mirror was a nightmare.

"Why do I have to be so ugly.."
I ask myself and touch my face. I slowly look down at my left arm, seeing multiple cuts on it.

Maybe adding more would distract me from my pain..

It hurt so much but it felt good at the same time. The blood came out of my multiple cuts and my razor was bloody as well.

And to my surprise I hear my mother knock on the bathroom door again.

"Melanie, I have to go inside. I forgot my glasses in there. Please open the door." I panicked and cleaned up the sink very fast.

I made sure that she couldn't see any blood anymore and I did a good job, I must say.

"S-sorry mom, I was playing on m phone and got distracted." I always had excuses and at this point, I don't even know if she believes them anymore.

---

"Hey Babygirl, you look really good, wanna come with me? I have a nice surprise for a auch good-looking Lady like you"
The voice of that man still creeps in my head.

Him touching my waist and then my face..I wanted to scream but I just couldn't.
If that one woman wouldn't have been there to save me, i don't know what would've happened to me.

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"Just go die already, nobody needs you."
"Have you heard about killing your self before? You should try that out"
"Die."

Maybe they are right, maybe I should just die..
Maybe no one cares about me..

do it.

But what about my friends?

they don't care

*KNOCK KNOCK*
"Mel, you have been in your room all day long these past days, maybe you should come outside with me. We could get dinner outside!" My mother offered me but I said no again.

Thanks to my mother I got distracted enough to not think about it again. I took my phone and just went to sleep. It has been a rough day already.

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"We're sorry Melanie, but we don't want to be friends with you anymore. We heard what you did and it was not okay. Stop hanging out with us and please stay away. Goodbye Melanie." We're the last words of my only friends..
They really left me?

I knew it.

"SHUT UP!"
I screamed out loud and everyone looked at me like I was a crazy woman.

But I was.

Karl's POV:
I hear crying and sniffles from beside me and look at Melanie sobbing on my chest.
I guess she had a nightmare.

"Hey Melanie, are you okay?" I ask her and I see her starting to shake more and more.

She had a panic attack.

"Oh no, it's okay Melanie, breath with me. Take a deep breath and then out."
She followed my steps and I can see her calming down again.

"What happened Melanie?"
"K-Karl?"
"Yes it's me, it's going to be okay" I hug her tightly and she starts to cry again.
"I don't want it to happen again..I don't want to lose my friends again." She mutters in my chest and I look at her confused.

"It won't, I promise you. We won't leave you, never." I try to comfort her and I think it is working.

"You are so strong Melanie, you have gone through shit, I know it, and believe me, you are one of the strongest women I have ever met. We love you"

"T-Thank you Karl." She whispers and I look at her teary eyes. Her eyes were all red and puffy and I felt so bad already.

"I don't want to sleep now. Could we do something else?" She asks me and I nod, looking for my phone.

"It's almost 6am and the sun is slowly starting to rise. Maybe we could go on the roof of the building and watch the sunrise?" I suggest  and she nods.

We quietly go up the stairs to the roof and nobody was there so we sat down on the two chairs that were already there.

The sunset was really beautiful. Melanie's face was glowing because of the sun and even tho she was still sleepy she still looked gorgeous.

"Okay, you can stop looking at me now. I get it, I'm sexy as fuck" she smirks at me and I look away embarrassed.

"Thank you Karl, watching this was awesome. I don't know if I want to tell you about my nightmare yet tho.."
"It's totally fine. You don't have to and just take your time. Maybe we should go eat breakfast now. Delilah is probably also worried about us." I giggle and she looks at me with the most adorable smile.

AHHHHH IDK IF THIS WAS GOOD BUT I REALLY WANTED TO WRITE AN ANGST FANFIC :))
HOPE YOU EMJOYED BABES AND DONT FORGET TO HYDRATE

-Good Day/Night
-Niki

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