When the Girl Gives Up

She will not fight for you anymore

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She will not fight for you anymore.

There were times that I'm still thinking about us. Yes, about the relationship we had.
But thing is, I can't do anything about it. Joke. I can do something like FIGHTING but I don't wanna do it this moment. I will not fight for him. I have to make sure about it.

John: Hi. Let's go out now?

John: Oh I'm sorry. That was supposed to be sent to Mich.

Me: It's ok John.

John: What? You didn't even freak out?

Me: Do I have to do it? Haha. We're off right? So why should I? I'm not anymore affected for Pete's sake.

John: That's all you can do to piss me off? Urg! I so hate this.

Me: Oh, you do? Sorry. Never meant to do such thing.

See? I'm not gonna fight for it anymore. He's so full of himself. I so hate that guy. Tsk. So what if he's going on a date with a girl? I mean, with his ex girlfriend? Haha. To hell I care.

Andrei calling..

(You might ask who this guy is. He's the older brother of my EX-BOYFRIEND. Caps Lock for Emphasis. Hahaha)

Me: Hey, you called.

Andrei: Yah. How are you doing?

Me: I'm actually fine. Super fine if I may add.

Andrei: Someone sounds bitter.

Me: haha. Is that someone you're referring to is me?

Andrei: I didn't say a thing.

Me: Ok. Up to you if that's what you believe.

Andrei: Are you not gonna fix the relationship? You've been with him for 2 years. That's long enough.

Me: No, it's not. Just so early to break up. Haha. But point is, I'm not gonna fix anything. I don't have the guts to fight anymore. He got all the guts in me. I can't find anything also to stay and not leave. I'm done with him. I suffered enough, I guess. What do you think?

Andrei: ok. It's up to you anyway. But please find time to listen to him once more.

Me: The hell! Again? Once more? Is there no ending of that once more, drei? It's over. A lot of once more is wasted. Listen? What for? To pity him again? To make me convince with his lame reasons?

Andrei: You know he loves you, right?

Me: No. I don't know anything anymore.

Andrei: Don't close your mind and heart please. He loves you and you know that.

Me: k. To correct you, I'm not closing my mind and heart. I'm closing the door for him and his opportunity. I don't wanna talk about this anymore. I'll stand with the decision I made. Thanks.

*OFF*

See? I'm tough. And mean, I know. Hehe. But I just wanna be as tough as that. Maybe If I'll hear some issues like that from his bro, I can't be able to stand my decision. I'll be weak again. So, it's better that the conversation stays like that.

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From : Michy'mich

That's his ex-girlfriend. Yea. I have her number on my phone. I even tried to befriend her. Just to have camaraderie. 😊

Mich: Hey! You biatch!!!

Me: excuse me? I think you've sent the message to the wrong person.

Mich: Oh really? Sorry but it's for you.

Me: oh? I thought it's supposed to be sent to yourself. Haha

Mich: Whatever! Please live a life girl. John and I are both happy with our relationship now. It's true that love is sweeter the second time around.

Me: oh hell! I don't care. You can actually go to hell if you want. Haha

Mich: Bitter. Oh well, wish us luck.

Me: Sure. Good luck!

That's it. I made sure my heart is still intact. Gosh, that damn girl!!! I wanted to slap her face real hard. Not that I'm still not over. I just want her to realize that John's not my lost. Ugh! And I don't care if they're together now. What the heck, right? Like what I've said, I'll not fight for him.

Actually, this happened a year ago. And I'm practically begging for her to stop chasing John because we're both happy with our relationship. I even made John stop texting with that girl. He moves on with her long time ago. But now that we are in this situation again, I'll not do the begging. Yuck! I've done it before. I'll not eat what I vomited already. I'm not that idiot.