As life goes, so do I

CAMBIA!

*the song might add another layer to your interpretation, but at the very least something to enjoy even if you don't understand what is being said*

It's quite a first for me

to not be enthused, optimistic to be

another way, to change, to grow up. 

I'm in the midst of a growth spurt;

I forgot how painful, how it can hurt

to undergo a new transition.

What a feat it is to let go of past pain 

To only better deal with the new sprains

I have yet to conquer, sew up old wounds. 

To my surprise,

and possibly my demise

there are wounds that have not completely healed.

What I thought was a sure plan in my future,

turns out to not to be solid, immature

and it fell through. 

In this moment now, 

I am lost, wandering complacently like a cow

Worse, I've given up. 

I wish I could get a break 

in my streak of losing, at least a breather for my emotional and mental sake.

I've let myself down for quitting, shutting down.

Demoralized is an understatement;

I've been dealt with so many punches that I'm bent

out of shape to where I no longer recognize myself. 

I'm not the person I used to be,

optimistic as far as  I could see

of the inevitable changes to happen in the future. 

I know there is hope,

I'll figure out how to cope

and understand myself better. 

I am sheep, 

I must trust where Ill be led no matter the heap

of past and new growing pains I suffer. 

Me pide para cambia,

sin optimism todavia

Espero que econtraré dirección.