Therapist • KTH ✔

16. Thoughts

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She found me at a time when it was too hard for her to accept anything. We were just two souls that began walking together, and the more we talked, the more we listened. And the only thing we were certain of is that we owned nothing but the very moment we were in.
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Taehyung's POV

I gently held Amy's cold hands in mine and spoke to her in a soft tone,
"Amy... I'm really sorry. I had no clue. It must have been hard for you."

She nodded with a sad smile, her head lowered, her cold and slender fingers curling around my hand.
"Yeah, Taehyung. Living life itself was a chore. But not anymore. I am doing a lot better now," her eyes glistening with tears that refused to fall, lifted to meet mine.

I held Amy's hand tighter.
"Whatever happened in the past will be in the past. Let me be by your side in the present. I will be your pillar and support you. You can trust me," I said without any hesitation, not moving my eyes from her mesmerizing ones, tinted with sadness, for even a brief second.

I wanted to destroy the sadness in her eyes and bring a sparkle in them. I didn't want her to talk about things that made her uncomfortable, but it had to be done today. When I opened up to her about my troubles, I started to feel much more comfortable and closer to her. And if she did the same, we would both be really close to each other. I wanted to close the gap between us. I wanted her to be more comfortable around me even if it meant her being sad for a while. I would comfort her and make her feel better. Her past did not bother me one bit and I didn't want it to bother her too.

She's precious, and I will protect her.

My heart thumped hard as I made soft circles on the back of her hand with my thumb.
"Amy... be my girlfriend," I spoke my mind.

Amy was startled, and her eyes widened in shock. She quickly withdrew her hands from mine and looked down as she spoke,
"Taehyung-"

I interrupted her,
"Amy, look at my eyes and say what you want to say."

She pushed out a breath and looked into my eyes briefly before looking away.
"Taehyung, please. I don't think I'm ready for a relationship yet. I'm sorry. I'll leave now," she spoke nervously and got up.

I quickly got up and grabbed her wrist, trying not to hold too hard.
"No, wait. I can't let you go alone. I'll drop you home."

Her shoulders slumped, and she hesitated, before letting out a heavy sigh, and, finally she nodded. We both remained silent throughout the drive.

I had made up my mind that I wanted to be her boyfriend and start a new phase in life with her. I wanted to make her happy, and I was determined to do so.

She was drowning deep in her own thoughts, and I wanted to hold her hand, but she kept her hands folded across her stomach. I glanced at her a thousand times, and she did too, a few times.

We arrived at her house, and Amy finally turned to look at me.
"Thank you for the ride, Taehyung," she smiled and collected her bag to get down.

I cleared my throat, causing her gaze to land on me, her eyebrows furrowed a little in doubt.
"Amy, please think about what I asked you earlier. I really meant it. Take your time. I'll wait for your reply," I smiled, my hands still tightly clutching on to the steering wheel.

She only nodded and smiled lightly.

"That doesn't mean we can't be friends, right?" I asked doubtfully.

"Of course, not. We're still friends. Drive back safe," she laughed finally and got down, waving goodbye to me as I drove off feeling relieved as well as anxious at the same time.