Therapist • KTH ✔

71. The Breakup

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If he's okay with losing you, then stop fighting!
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Adding the author note here to explain something.

In this book, Taehyung is a man who has strong family values, takes great pride in genetics and keeps feeling extremely proud about impending fatherhood. The first reaction of such a man when he sees this kind of a report would be total devastation. At that instant, suspicion creeps in, at least to a small extent. It is like a poison in the mind, and no matter how hard he tries and chooses to ignore it and be with her, subconsciously her every action would seem suspicious to him. His mind might block him from expressing the same kind of affection that he did towards the unborn baby before seeing such a report. All these would have practically killed their relationship and made their lives a living hell, and so he chooses to do it himself without having to go through a miserable life filled with doubt and suspicions.

What might happen in the future is a scenario that his mind is completely blind to, blinded by his rage.

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Dec 7, 2020
Taehyung's POV

Finally, after hours of pondering over it, I decided. It was the only way to feel relieved. I would handle my parents and Jimin later. I had to bring things to a closure with Amy.

Yes, I decided to break up and end things with her.

I texted her.

Me:
I will meet you at the park near my house

Me:
Tonight at 7. Near tree 013.

After a while she replied.

Amy:
Okay. See you there

I took a long shower and braced myself for what was to come. I mentally rehearsed my lines. I dressed up and packed up her sweater, the ultrasound images from the fridge door, the reports that I had with me, the bear print necktie that she gifted me and the memory box which had the pregnancy test stick, her business card and her hair strand. I wanted to add so much more to the box, but everything that belonged to her disgusted me suddenly.

The pain of letting go of something and someone I thought was my forever was like someone stabbed me in my chest with a rusted knife and kept twisting it, plunging it deeper with each twist and push.

In a fit of rage, I discarded all the little love notes we wrote for each other. I threw the snow globe she gifted me into the bag of things I wanted to return to her.

I am surprised by how quickly life changes in just a few minutes or hours or days. Last week we were making out in my bedroom. This week I am alone and ridding my house of things that belonged to her

My tears flowed uncontrollably.

Is it because I miss her? Is it because I feel like a fool for having trusted her? She already had a broken relationship in the past. I never really bothered about it. Maybe I should've paid more attention to it? At least that could've given me some sense. I truly loved her and got blinded by everything about her...but ended up being the loser.

Wiping my tears, I looked up at my miserable reflection in the mirror,
"Taehyung, you did nothing wrong except loving her with all of you. Don't be harsh on yourself. Get rid of all her things, and you will be fine," I said to myself and took the bag that had all her stuff, locked the house and left.