raura one shots

God dang you're beautiful

Hello lovelies!!! So, I decided to do a song one shot cause I haven't done any of those in a while! And another thing, my contest is still going. :)

WARNING: Contains self harm

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Laura POV

           I sobbed my heart out into my hands as the stinging pain took over. I looked down at the rusted metal and sobbed harder. "I deserve it" I whispered. The voices in my head were getting to me and they were telling me things I knew weren't true but I couldn't help but listen to them.

"You're ugly. You're fat. You don't deserve anything; especially not having Ross as your best friend. No, you deserve to die." My phone lit up in the corner of the slightly dark room and I sniffled, crawling from one corner of the room to another. Ross' picture showed for about the one hundredth time, except this time, it was a text, not a call.

"Laur, I'm coming over right now. I'm worried about u. I feel like ur avoiding me... Either that or ur hurt. C u in about 5 minutes."

I panicked, when Ross said 5 minutes, he meant like 2! He was always say 5 and then show up earlier to scare you!

I stood quickly and rushed to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror... I'm so hideous... I sighed and turned the water on as hot as it would go, putting my arms under the water and hissing at the sting.

Ross POV

      I snuck into the house, a small smirk playing at my lips. I heard water running upstairs and went up there. I went into Laura's room and saw the bathroom light on; smirking wider.

"Boo!-" I was met by Laura quietly crying to herself as hot water ran over scars... "Laura!" She looked back and paled even more, sobbing harder. I pulled her away from the water and turned it off, grabbing a towel and drying her arms that were now red and blistering. I ran cold water over them and cooed sweet nothings into her ear as she sobbed in my shoulder. "Laura, calm your breathing."

I looked under the bathroom cabinet and got out some cream and gauze. I turned the water off, rubbing the cream over her arms before wrapping them gently.

"Laura, what the heck?!" I picked her up and carried her to her bedroom, setting her on the bed. I sat in between her legs, my thumbs rubbing soft circles on her thighs as she covered her her face with her hands. "Ross, go a-away! P-Please, leave!" "Laura tell me why you did that" I hushed her softly.

She sniffled and calmed slightly. "Because I'm ugly.... I don't deserve you; I deserve to die... but not just suicide. A slow, painful death by my razors." "Laura, no one deserves that. And you're beautiful..." She closed her eyes and a tear slid down her cheek. "No I'm not..."

(A/D: Just to be clear, the song that Ross is about to sing is God d*** you're beautiful but I'm just gonna say dang, just encase you wind up wondering what song it is :).)

"On the days I can't see your eyes... I don't even want to open mine..." I sang softly, my thumb caressing her cheek. Her eyes opened and she looked at me. "On the days I can't see your smile" I poked her cheek and she giggled, smiling which made me smile. "Well I'd rather sit." I sat next to her and pulled her into my lap, lacing our fingers together. "Wait the while.... For the days I know you'll be near... Cause a day without you... it just isn't fair." I tilted her head up to see her blushing deeply. "On the days I can hear your voice.... I'm left without a choice."

I kissed her cheek gently. "And plus I get weak in the knees, fall head over heels baby.... and every other cheesy cliché. Yes I'm swept off my feet. Ohhh my heart skips a beat... but there's really only one thing to say..." I brought her hands up to my lips and kissed them each softly. "God dang you're beautifulllll.... to meeeeee. You're everything... yeah, that's beautiful... Yes to meeeeee. Ohhhh." I smiled at her, taking the pause that was in the song to take a few deep breaths.

"I can't find the words to explain.. yeah, just how much, you got me... going insane." I twirled my finger next to my head to indicate I was calling myself crazy which made her giggle. I picked up the broken picture on the side of her dresser from when we had our first best friend argument and I ended up breaking the picture. "When you speak to me sometimes we fight... Ohh I stutter my words.. I say never mind." I picked up another picture of when she was talking to me and I was blushing deeply which made her laugh again. "Cause even when you just walk by.... well, I look around. To seem occupied" I pretended to look around the room which made her laugh and hit my shoulder. I smiled and looked back at her. "Cause I'm trying to hard... to hide. Yeah, all of these feelings inside" I sang softly, cupping her cheek in one hand.

"Cause I get a weak in the knees." I stood and placed her in front of me, wrapping my arms around her waist as she wrapped hers around my neck, me pretending to stumble and pretend my knees were giving out. "Fall head over heels baby..... And every other cheesy cliché. Ohhhh, I'm swept off my feet" I smiled and dipped her. She smiled back at me. "Oh, my heart skips a beat. But there's really only one thing to say..."

"God dang you're beautifulllll.... to meeeeee. Ohhhhh, you're everything. Yeah, that's beautiful... Yes to meeeeee.... Ohhhhh. Yes to meeeeee.... ohhhh." I pressed my lips to hers softly and she kissed me back.

I waited until the paused was over in the song to pull away. "Yeah you're beautiful... Yeah you're beautiful. God dang.... you're beautiful." I laced out hands together again. "To me....." I rubbed my nose against hers and stood her up straight, smiling.

"To me."