raura one shots

  don't wanna cry
         my heart was broken. shred to pieces. all because of a boy? pull yourself together laura. ross is coming over any minute and he can't see you this way i told myself. it's my supposed 1-year-aversarry with my boyfriend, Derek. and i went to his house to see him. i was at the front door when i heard giggling. i looked through the window...........i'm not a stalker. anyway i looked and saw him kissing a girl. i ran home. now here i am. in my room. locked up here. writing how i feel. this is what i wrote:

you say i need to cry to heal.....but there isn't anything to cry for. you say to get to the best there has to be a worst. but i don't wanna go through that worse. i don't wanna cry. i don't wanna feel the way i do. you and me both know what he did was unacceptable. after he said he loved me. after he said he would never hurt me. he told me to trust and i did. i fell for his trap. he never loved me.
   your ugly.......
   everyone hates you.......
   your nothing but taken up space......
these were the things he said to me. but i replaced them with my own thoughts.
     your strong......
     your beautiful.....
     no one can hurt you........
that's what i said. i believed myself. but after what happened i'm not so sure. when we met i thought it was love at first sight. i melted at the very thought of his gaze. what was once a pair of two kind and gentle hazel green eyes was now two eyes that looked like nothing but two gigantic black pools of hatred. with me drowning in them. i used to think of his eyes as beautiful. but now all i see is hate. and it's all pointed toward me. why me? what did i do............

i sat in the corner of my room and cried. i've been here since about 1:00 this afternoon and it's 9:00 at night. my friend ross has been texting me. i haven't answered but i know what they said:

laur did derek hurt you

why

are you okay

do you need something

answer me please

do you want me to hurt him

laur please

i understand your hurting but you need someone to let your feelings out to.

you can't write it all in a book.

i'm coming over.

that was the most recent one. and that was about 10 minutes ago. i was wearing a frownie face tank top that was purple with short shorts. my heart was pounding and my head was in pain.

i'm heart broken....

i can't eat.....

i can't sleep....

i can't do anything....

i'm everything broken

i thought to myself. why? why? why? i started breathing heavier and crying harder. tears rolling down my cheeks and chin, hugging my knees, in the corner of a dark room. i felt two pairs of arms wrap around me. i thought it was my dad so i continued to cry. but when i looked up i was greeted by my best friend, Ross Shor Lynch. i hugged him back. we were sitting in the room. both of us on our knees hugging. he rubbed my back as i continued to soak his shirt.

ross' POV

     i picked her up. i carried her over to her bed and covered her up. i pulled up a chair next to the bed and turned on her lamp. she continued to cry while i rubbed her back. i looked on the floor. "laur what'd you write in your book" i asked. "just read it" she sniffled. she must be really upset. she's letting me read her book. i picked it up and read. "woah. this is really deep" i whispered to myself. after i was done reading i put the book on dresser. "laur you have nothing to feel bad about. if he can't see how great you are then he's obviously blind. your the most amazing girl in the world. who anyone and everyone should and will love. you just gotta give it time" i whispered to her. she nodded. "thank you" she said as i dried her tears. "i know what'll make you happy" i smiled. "what" she asked.  "welllllll.........." i said in a high pitched voice. "what did you do to derek" she asked.