This Is My Story.

Choice.

21/02/15

People say that we have to love our parents, they made us, brought us into the world, raised us to the age that we are now, so we have to love them right?

Wrong!

You don't Have to love anyone, loving someone is a choice, not a demand.

I have never believed that I loved my parents, maybe it's just the person that I am, but I can't tell my parents that I love them, because I don't know if it's true, there are times when they will do or say something and I think "I do love you" but then I go into this confused state of mind and think do I? Because if that moment didn't happen I wouldn't have thought that, so yes at times that will run through my mind but at the end of the day I will still think I don't love them.

I don't love any of my family members, does that sound wrong? Is that bad of me? I mean I love my dogs, but I don't love my brother? I love my friends, but I don't love my cousins? I even love my sister in law, but I don't love anyone that is actually related to me?

Now loving is a choice, I believe that I don't love my family members because they make me feel insecure, they pick out my insecurities and make me want to hide into a shell, they bring down my self esteem and make it lower than it already is, but my friends build it back up again and make me feel strong again.

So of course I am going to pick friends over family right? Because why would I chose the people that make me feel bad about myself?

The thing with parents and family members that are above you is you do as they say, you don't have a choice, they are your superiors so you can't say no to them, so what does that lead to?

An argument of course.

So you fight and you bicker and you get pissed off and you storm off to your room and if you're like me you will cry when you're angry and then hate yourself for it.

Everyone has a choice.

But in this world that we are living in we can't just get up and go rent a flat or a house and move away from the people who are supposed to be family and build you up.

Life isn't the same as it was 50 years ago when you could go to the corner shop and get a bag of sweets for a penny, hell it's not even the same as it was 10 years ago when you could go to the shop and get a bag of sweets for 10p.. Oh those were the good ol' days.

Life is so expensive now, so we can't just do whatever we want, unless we have this amazing high paid job.

But let's be serious there isn't enough jobs in the world for everyone to be satisfied, why do you think people come over to the UK? So they can get Benefits!

But that is a whole other topic, that I shouldn't get into because then i will rant.

But the whole point of this was, you don't have to love your parents, and you don't always have to do what they tell you to do.

You are your own person, and who are they to hold you back from the person that you are supposed to be?

You have a choice, so make one.