Eyesight and hearing... It's always a question you get asked, if you had a choice of which one you'd lose, which would it be?
I've never really wanted to answer the question, why would I choose between the two?
But I think I've finally figured out which I would choose.
You see I could handle not being able to hear my favourite songs, or any kind of music at all.
I could handle not being able to hear my guitar as my fingers play the strings.
I could handle not being able to hear the tv, and having to have subtitles constantly.
I could handle not hearing people's conversations, even though I am incredibly nosey.
I could handle not being able to hear her laugh, or hear her voice, because I already have it memorised in my brain, I don't need her to tell me she loves me, because I can hear her saying the words in my head every time I glance at her.
I don't need to her her laugh, because I only need to see the joy on her face, and I already have it playing in my mind.
So I would choose to be deaf, because I could handle not being able to hear my favourite sounds, which is her voice, my guitar, and as odd as it sounds, the tapping of the keyboard when I'm writing.
But I couldn't handle being blind.
I wouldn't be able to live with never being able to see another sunset, or sunrise, or just the sun in general.
I wouldn't be able to handle, not seeing the look of joy on my dogs faces.
I wouldn't be able to handle, not seeing my fingers plucking the strings on my guitar, because it's so mesmerising to watch.
I wouldn't be able to handle not watching my favourite tv shows.
Or going to a zoo and not being able to see all the animals
I would miss being able to look up at the stars.
I'd miss the amazing views all around the world when travelling.
But most of all, I'd miss her eyes, and the way they look when the sun hits them, I'd miss her smile, I'd miss seeing her throwing her head back in laughter whenever I say something stupid, I'd miss the stupid dances that she does, I'd miss the crazy faces that she pulls, I would miss being able to see every single tiny detail of her, even though my hands now have her body and face memorised, my eyes would miss her incredibly.
So the next time I am asked, "if you had to be deaf or blind, what would you be?"
My reply would be deaf, and if they ask me why, this will be my reply.
It's her, my reason for wanting my eyesight is her.
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