Frozen Heart

Chapter 47 ~ "I Have Those Days Too"

☆ Warning! Mature Scenes ahead! ☆ 

Grace

*I'll be there around 9, I miss you*

I look at my phone as I walk up the driveway to my house and I smile seeing Nik's text. As selfish as it was, I was so excited that he'd be here with me tonight. I knew his sister needed support, but if Nate was with her I'm sure that was good. Too many people would probably make her uncomfortable and overwhelmed. I'd been losing so much time with him and I needed him next to me in bed for a while.

*That's perfect for me, see you tonight <3*

I send my message back and I put my phone back into my pocket, walking up to my front door. I kick off my shoes and I nearly shriek to see mom sitting at the dinning room table right when I walk inside. I take a deep breath and furrow my eyebrows.

"You scared me." I scold, pulling off my jacket. She just sits there with a stern look on her face and I clear my throat. "Is something wrong?" I ask and she sighs.

"Sit down, please." She whispers and I do. When mom was upset I didn't question her. I take a seat and she runs her hand over her forehead. "I'm going to ask you a question and I want a straight answer." She says and I nod.

"Okay." I say, crossing my legs and she sighs.

"Are you and Nik having sex?" She asks, raising her eyebrows. I immediately feel my whole body recoil and I clear my throat.

"What? Where's this coming from-"

"Yes or No?" She asks and I sit for a minute feeling uncomfortable. 

"I.....we....." I didn't know how to answer, I didn't want her to know what we got up to.

"Grace Lukaisak, answer my question!" She exclaims.

"Yes, okay?!" I huff, shoving back from the table. "Why are you asking me?" 

"I don't ask questions I don't know the answer to." She warns and I furrow my eyebrows. "I....emptied your garbage can today."

"You went through my trashcan?" I ask, feeling a little annoyed. She'd have to be looking to find it, that last time was over a week ago and there was only one spent condom in it. "You could have just asked me! Why would you go snooping?"

"I was only rounding up all the trash in the house, some of it didn't make it into the bag and when I opened the bag to put it back in.....I-uh saw it." She says quickly. "Believe me, I wasn't looking for.....that and I wish I hadn't found it."

"Well that makes two of us." I mumble, feeling my cheeks heat up.

"Are you two always safe-"

"Mom!" I exclaim and she sighs.

"I'm just looking out for you, just answer me honestly." She says calmly and I sigh.

"Yes, every time." I mumble, crossing my arms. "And we've hardly done it in this last month."

"I think.....I think maybe it might be a good idea to talk to a physician about.....birth control of some kind." She says quietly and I roll my eyes. "Not because I'm upset or because I don't trust you, but if you're going to do it I'd like you to be safe." 

"Yeah.....that's honestly not a bad idea." I sigh and she nods.

"I wanted you to get on it when you started high school, but your father wouldn't hear of it." She says quietly. "I'm glad I found it after he left." She laughs and I cringe.

"Okay, can this be the end of this awkward conversation please?" I beg and she nods. "Pretend you don't know, don't-ask-don't-tell."

"Loud and clear." She says and I sigh, pushing back from the table. "Please be safe." She adds and I shake out my arms in disgust.