WDW BXB ONE SHOT BOOK 2

22.Day 4|Be Myself-Janiel

⚠️TW: Anxiety/depression please don't read if it's gonna trigger you.⚠️
Type: songfic,sad
Ship: Janiel
Famous: yes

Jack's POV
Where do I start?
All these thoughts inside my head colliding
I decide I'm staying in tonight
They say follow your heart
But it's beating uncontrollably
I can't hear what it's telling me this time

I have been having all these bad thoughts about myself lately,but it's been even worse lately. I've had hard decisions to make lately and people have been telling me to "follow my heart",but how can I when it's so clouded? I was supposed to go out with the boys tonight,but I told them to go on without me. Daniel did look at me with concern though it's like he can see through me.

We're dancing on the edge of anxiety's ledge
And I might fall again, I might fall
We're walking on a rope of worry and I hope that I don't fall again,I don't fall

"I've been feeling really anxious Daniel and I don't know what to do. It's like I'm on the edge and I might fall." I explained to Daniel as we were sitting on the edge of my bed. My eyes were glossy with tears.

"I know Jack I know." He said pulling me in a hug.

Take me somewhere I can be
I can be myself
Oh,take me somewhere I am free
Free to be myself and nothing else

"Please help me. Help me find a place where I can be myself." I whispered as he held me even closer nodding sadly at my request.

I've never had pride for myself and I'm proud of that
Cause I know that I'm just somebody else
So why do I try?
Try to find my validation in what everybody's saying
I need some help

I was never somebody that was proud of my accomplishments. I always shrugged them off feeling like they weren't all that special. It's been even worse since I started the band. I take every hate,every criticism to heart.

I need help.

Y'all this was sad to write. If I wrote anything wrong about anxiety or depression please let me know and I'll fix it.