Between Shades of Gray

XX

It had been 1 week since that incident happened. Dinah already left last Tuesday with several words of encouragement telling me to confess my love for Jennie, but of course as a coward as I am, I couldn't.

My parents were both out of the country but as soon as they heard the news, they never failed to contact me like everyday, they're so worried about me and don't want me to get near Seulgi again. They said they would be the one who will take care of it. We also don't want the media to feast on what happened, since I am still the sole Brüschweiler-Manoban heiress after all.

Dad told me that it was really a right decision to have my bodyguards tailing me anywhere I go. We usually fight over them because I don't want to be monitored but as usual, he was right. My bodyguards really saved my life. And I never had a second thought about giving them a bonus of high amount because of my gratitude to them. Well, that's the least I can do.

And if not because of then, maybe I am not the only victim. I would never forgive myself if anything happened to Jennie or any of them. Speaking of Jennie, that incident just made us closer if it's still possible. Therefore, she owns my heart and soul. I really am in love with her even though it wasn't reciprocated.

Love.

I never really understood this word or feeling until she came. She gave meaning to my life. She turned me into a hopeless romantic that I never know I will become. I should stop myself from loving her but I can't. As much as I am hurting, I still love the feeling of being in love with the most wonderful woman in the world. I really really REALLY love her. Even if there's no chance for us being romantically involved, I won't stop loving her. I became satisfied that she comes home every night with me. She might be dating Rosé, or in love with her for that matter, but still, she comes home to ME.

JUST ME.

She became the positive energy in my life too. Not to mention that the reason I became involved with the family business is because of her. I became responsible. She molded me to become a better person. Even before I understood my feelings, I always have this notion to impress her. I even tried to learn cooking just to impress her or be the perfect girl she wanted. But as much as I tried, I always failed.

Last day, I tried cooking her a Thai dish. I even call Dad to teach me over the phone and well, it turned out really bad.

*Flashback*

I was in the kitchen when I heard the door being opened.

"Lili, I'm home." Jennie said in a loud voice.

"Where are you?" she called out.

"In the kitchen." I replied. I sigh when I look at the mess I've made.

"Okay, what are you~ ... W-What happened?" Her mouth was agape

"Well, I was trying to make a Thai dish and you know, try to cook something for us because as far as I remember, you're the only one who always cook but yeah... I burned it and-" I said shamefully as I tried to clean the mess I've made frantically with a rug.

"Don't worry, I'm going to clean it and-" I said irritated to myself because of my failure. I remember how good Rosé's cooking and her I am, making a mess and thinking to order a take out since it's already dinner time.

I didn't notice that Jennie started walking towards me, her hands encircled my waist. She's smiling widely and with that, my heart beats erratically inside my chest when she raised her finger on the side of my mouth. Her eyes never leaving mine. She really looked so cute with that damn eyeglasses that she's wearing. Unconsciously, I lick my lips because she was too close for comfort.