Between Shades of Gray

XI

Ever since Lisa's birthday, the closeness between us grew a lot stronger, more than what we had before. Honestly, I feel the satisfaction in this kind of relationship, you know as best friends. Now, I'm pretty sure that I could never live without her.

I love her. I mean, I don't know if I'm in love with her yet but I can feel deep inside me that I love her. Like sisterly love, friendship love and everything else in between. I could never replace her inside my heart with anyone and I can say that she will occupy a space in my heart for the rest of my days.

But this is always my problem. I tend to be attached with someone whom I spent my time with. And in our case, I always spend time with Lisa. But I know that if I want to save my friendship with her, the confusing feelings inside my heart should be forgotten.

She will never fall in love with me, that I am 100% sure.

Why? Because I know her story. She trusted me enough to tell me why she became like this. A girl who would never fall in love. Ever.

To save my heart, I have to bury my growing feelings for her. To save our friendship, I have to (again) bury my growing feelings for her.

I was totally not oblivious when Lisa was making jealous remarks directed against me and the previous women I made out with before. But again, I knew her story. So I don't want to give any malice on her actions. She was just afraid that I leave her. That I would choose someone over her and leave her for good.

But I would never do that to her. I would never leave her no matter who will come between us. Ever.

"Hey." Someone pokes me on my cheek and that certain someone had been running inside my mind for the past minutes. I glare at her playfully.

"Lisa, would you stop doing that?!" She develope a habit of poking me on my cheeks.

"No. I love doing that." she said teasingly. Then she hugs me from behind and put her arms around me.

"Seriously, what are you thinking?" now her chin rests on my shoulder.
I was standing and looking outside our window when she approaches me.

"Nothing. I was just admiring the view." I said, as I reach out for her hair and kiss the side of her head.

"How was work?" I ask, changing the topic.

"Office work? Well, same old story."

She tightens her hold on my stomach.

"How was your work?" she asks in return.

I let out a soft sigh before answering her. To be honest, I come to love the feeling of Lisa's arms around me, feeling her warth, inhaling her scent, and if only I can stay between them forever, I would.

"I'm busy as always. Too many lives to save."

"Oh, Okay, Dr. Hotshot. So what do you want for dinner?"

"As if you're going to cook?" I tease and laugh.

"I hate you." She said with her fake irritated voice and now I can't stop laughing hard.

"Really, I hate you." She said and then releases me and I immediately turn to face her only to see that she was pouting adorably.

"I get it, I'm not a good cook. I mean, cooking and Lalisa Manoban doesn't just go well together okay? So you don't have to rub it in my face, Jennie Kim." She said, glaring at me.

I still can hold myself and immediately, I pull her towards me and caress her cheeks.

"Don't be mad princess. I'm just kidding. Come on, I cooked our dinner already. I was just waiting for you." I said and I give her a kiss in her forehead which earned a wide grin in her face that I have to pinch her cheeks.