Between Shades of Gray

XXVI

*Flashback*

LISA's POV

"Lisa... Do you... Do you remember me?"

I look at her deeply into her eyes. This beautiful woman in front of me, looking at me lovingly like I was the only person in the world.

If only if it were true.

I was silent for a while. I stare at those deep brown eyes. God, how could I forget her? She is my life. But-

Flashes of memories ran inside my mind.

"Jennie is really lucky, you know. Did you know that Rosé is planning to tell her her undying feelings this day? I even helped her find the perfect ring. I think she wants to propose too. And she told me she would invite Jennie to go to Australia to meet her parents. I'm pretty sure our girl Jennie said yes by now." Jisoo Unnie's voice rang inside my head.

It's too late now, isn't it?

I. Was. Too Late.

How many days did I slept in this hospital bed? 1 week? A month? A year?

I feel so weak yet well rested. It's like I slept for the longest time. And I also had a dream, a very peaceful dream. I was with my twin brother and we were happy. There was no heartbreak, no sorrow, just full of peace and love.

But then Bam bid his last goodbye to me; he told me that I need to go back now. I was begging for him to come with me but he refused. He said someone is waiting for me here. I believed him. With teary eyes, I walked away from him.

But right now, the realization sinks in within me.

I. WAS. TOO. LATE.

The heartbreak of loving her came back again inside of me. Again, I am the fool who is secretly in love with her best friend.

I wish I could forget everything... I wish I could just forget THESE feelings...

"Lisa, do you remember Jennie?" Another voice pops out; it was my father, asking the same question.

I nibble my bottom lip, afraid to answer, afraid to voice the truth, afraid to come back in the reality.

Of course, I remember her. I was in love with her. Still am because she is the love of my life.

I wish I could forget my feelings for her. I wish I could but-

I saw her sighs deeply, and then stands up. She turns her back away from me and starts to walk away.

Did I-

Did I hurt her by not acknowledging her?

Oh, NO! Please don't leave!

I swallow the lump in my throat and wet my lips. My throat is still sore but I need my voice now.

"I... remember you... very clearly... Jennie Kim." I said, my voice was hoarse. The pain in my throat was still present but I ignored it.

Jennie Kim.

It felt so good to finally say her name.

She stop when she heard me and turns around to face me and rush to my bedside and my heart skips a beat when I saw her crying. I wanted to apologize for not answering sooner. My tears start falling down too, but she wipes them away.

"Lisa, I thought I lost you." She said softly. She cups my cheeks and kisses me directly on my lips.

I gasp.

Why was she kissing me?

My heart beats erratically inside my chest. Is there a chance that she feels the same way too?