The Midgardian? - A Loki Story

V. Luna part 9

I have spent all day getting ready!!! Why can't I look halfway decent? I have gone through every piece of clothing I own.... I guess this will work. I wanted to look nice but not over the top. I found a forest green dress that was short and had a corset back. I quickly put on my contacts and a black cardigan and there was a knock at the door... I stopped in my tracks... My breathe shuttered.... It's happening.

I answered the door and smiled. Loki stood there in a very sharp elegant black suit. His hair was slick back.... And he just looked ...amazing. I began to feel ashamed. He was dressed very elegant and I have on the equivalent to a sun dress on...

"Hi there!" my voice squeaked a bit.

"hello, are you ready to go" he gave me a sly smile.

"of course..."

The restaurant was really nice. I have never been to this one probably because it looked to nice to eat at by myself. We had a private area. The room had dim lighting but enough to see every outline of his beautiful face. The walls were made of mirrors, the ceiling looked to have a hand painted masterpiece on it. I gulped...this place is really nice.

Loki and I sat across from one another. It was very silent at first. The water came and took our orders and we sat there in silence. I glanced up at him and he was looking at me like he was studying me...

"so, Loki, what brings you to the area" my voice was shaky because I was never the one to initiate conversation.

"I am here on business. My father sent me to work out some deal with some people here."

"oh, that sounds nice, what is it that you and your father do" ....

There was a long pause.

"I had a very long week actually, if its ok I would rather not discuss work right now" he sounded stern but let out a chucked at the end as to alleviate the way he said it.

"of no its fine, of course, I completely understand."

There was another long pause.

"what about you Luna, what brings you to the area."

"oh- I've lived here my entire life" I said without second guessing.

He tilted his head though... which I thought it looked as if he was taken back by my answer...

"I am not much for small talk, most of the people I know, I have known my entire life, so I know every detail about them, and its just hard when I know nothing about you" he said in a way as if he was asking permission to get to know me.

"right yes, understandable. Im an open book basically, what would you like to know."

He gave me a devilish smirk.

"anything would be fine, where were you born? Parents? Siblings? School? Hobbies?"

"oh- "I sat up straight in my chair... "I feel like I am at an interview and they do that tell me about yourself question" I let out a giggly that came out shyer and more girly than usual.

"ok, whew –uhm Hi, my name is Luna Taylor, I was raised here in Atlanta, my parents, well adopted parents are Anna and Steve Taylor, I have no siblings, school um..." Luna didn't want to tell Loki she use to get picked on, she didn't want him to think she was a loser..." school was school" I said briskly trying to ease by the subject. "my hobbies include reading, and uhm—tending to my garden" I realize now that I was in fact boring... "wait" I screamed with excitement "I also love kayaking and swimming during the summer" I wanted to add something that tells him something, so he doesn't think I stay inside by myself all day... He gave me a weak smile...

"so, you were adopted, do you know your birth parents" he asked with a lot of concern in his voice.

"no, I don't know where I was born, my mother, Anna, found me on her doorstep one night... I don't know my real parents.......... but don't get me wrong I love my mom, she's great" I said with delight.
Loki looked pleased and yet upset with that answer.

The rest of the night we spent actually having small talk. I guess the information I told him was enough that he felt like he knew me. We finished eating and left the restaurant and he took me home. We stood at my door while he told me goodnight. I half thought the date went at least a little good and he would kiss me or at least my cheek.

"since your home now ill get going, thank you for the evening."

"I- uhm. thank you for dinner"
He turned and walked away, so I turned and walked inside. I stood with my back to the door...
did I overshare, did I do something wrong, what guy asks you to dinner if he doesn't find you attractive, maybe I was to boring...shit...well duh no guy that looks like that is going to go for someone like me, he probably just felt bad for me...

I changed clothes and took out my contacts...I walked outside to sit in the garden where it could maybe give me some sort of relief... I felt defeated. I know I don't know this guy, but he was the first guy besides a few creeps that seemed interested. Everyone I know at work is married or getting married. and I'm kind of just here. I brushed the petals of the flower that was close to me. I heard a chirp to my right. It was the bird from the other day, I opened my palm to the bird. The bird flew over and landed softly on my hand. I reached to touch its feathers and it let me. I began talking to the bird because I needed something to talk to and I guess it's the best I got.

"you know your lucky right" I gave a defeated sigh "all you have to worry about is eating and basking in bird baths, when you want you can just fly away..." I began to cry "I don't know what's wrong with me, I thought he asked me on a date because maybe he liked me, but it felt more like a business meeting, he barely looked at me and when he did... I don't even know how he looked at me.... of course, someone like him wouldn't like someone like me, he could probably if not already have anyone he wants...I'm just a freak...." I had already lowered my hand to where it was resting on my lap, the bird stayed in my palm the entire time, hardly moving. "not to mention I'm sitting here talking to a bird about my problems...I guess your about as good as audience as any" I sat there for a very long time running over everything in my head feeling more and more defeated "I'm so useless" I let out a big sign.... I set the bird down on the bench and walked away, I no longer had the energy to even be in my garden... I walked inside, lifted my window, laid in bed, and curled into a ball and cried myself to sleep...