The Midgardian? - A Loki Story

XI. Luna Part 17

I had been crying all day. I had spiraled into my deepest depression. I felt used and betrayed. I  felt worthless... I had no energy to do anything... I tried going out to my garden but even then, the flowers began to wilt and made me feel even worse because I was destroying my garden. I fucking hate him!!! How can he just use me like that... I told him all of my secrets I opened up to him... He is just another fuck boy!!!

I sat crying into my hands for what seemed like a lifetime.

I heard a gush of wind followed by my name in a low uneven tone.

I knew it was Loki. Just hearing his voice put me in an all-right rage.

I slowly looked up at him trying to figure out why the fuck he would come back here...

He stepped cautiously into the garden looking at the flowers in disappointment.

He raised his hands into a defensive position palms facing me as if he were trying to calm and coax a bear...

"Just let me explain please, I swear I had a very good reason for leaving, and I know you deserved an explanation this morning, but I didn't know all the answers but now I do, and I can explain them to you If you please let me."

I could still feel the anger rising from the pits of my stomach but part of me wanted to run to him the other part wanted him to rile in pain. He could see the conflicting colors in my eyes I just know it.

"Please I can obviously see that you are in a lot of pain and anger I can see how sad you are, but I can also see other colors there too please do not let the hate consume you before you know the truth, I beg you please"?

Loki was still slowly walking towards me with such small steps trying not to make any sudden movements that would startle me... he inches closer to where he was a few feet away from me.

he extended his hand to me and I just stared at it... he dropped his hand.

"Please let me just explain and if it's not a good enough reason then I will leave."

I finally nodded in defeat and he let out a sigh of relief... this was his one chance.

"My brother and I came here looking for a key for our father, it is a very important key, we were to get the key and report back to Odin... I needed this key to get back in good relations with my father because right now the only person on my side is my brother and he convinced Odin to let me help him on this mission for a pardon... we weren't supposed to be here this long... but then I met you, I saw you and I had to know you... I visited you everyday perched on your window seal. A little bird told me that you actually liked me. and that gave me the courage to ask you to dinner and to get to know you ... but this key... it will save my planet. it's very important. this morning I realized how long I had been here and that if I wanted to continue to be able to see you, I needed to return the key, get in good graces with Odin so I would be able to come and go to earth as I pleased... I would be able to see you whenever I wanted ... you're a very special woman Luna, and I didn't want to chance never being able to see you again so I had to finish this so I could be able to see you... and after all my brother has done for me, I swear to on his life it was never my intention to leave you..."

It grew very quiet. The silence was almost deafening.

This sounds to truthful to be a lie... and he came back just to explain this to me. maybe he's being honest and really does just want to finish the mission so he can see me whenever and be in good terms with his father... maybe I did overreact.

I looked to Loki.

"Hey now, why are you embarrassed."

I began to sob.