The Midgardian? - A Loki Story

IX. Luna Part 13

I was startled awake by a knock at the door. I jumped out of bed and ran to the door.

"Good morning Luna" he gave me a flirtatious smile. He was holding two coffees and a bag in his hand.

I blushed "Good morning Loki."

"I got you some coffee and a muffin. I hope you like it."

He handed me the coffee and I sipped on it.

"It's very good, thank you so much that was so kind of you."

We walked inside and sat at the table. He handed me a muffin and I giggled. We began to eat silently stealing glances at each other and smiling. This was the best morning I have had in a very long time. We finished eating and it began to get awkward again. I didn't know how to act around him.. 

Loki stood up.

"Would you like to go outside" he gave me the most flirtatious smile.

"I would love to Loki."

As we stepped outside, the air was crisp. It was the perfect autumn morning. We walked to the garden and sat at the bench. We were exchanging glances at one another and talking. It had been a good minute of us talking. All was going well but then His face grew stern and I could see anger consume him. I began to get worried and I know he could see that I was beginning to worry but that didn't subdue his anger.

He abruptly grabbed my thigh.

The sensation sent tingles up my spine. It was gripping hard but it kinda felt good.

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS!!!" Loki was furious.

Loki was pointing at the cuts on my thighs....

He grabbed my wrist and turned my hand over revealing more cuts on the underside of my arms.

"What is this, why are there so many cuts on your beautiful body."

Loki's anger turned to worry.

"I—I" I was stuttering over my words I didn't know what to say. I was so excited to see him, that I forgot to cover them up... I began feeling embarrassed. No one has ever really seen them, much less confronted me about them. 

"What the hell Luna, did you do this to yourself."

I couldn't answer. I only managed to nod my head.

"Why would you do this to yourself."

I was looking down.

"No, look at me" he lifts my chin "tell me why you would do this to yourself" "there must be a good reason" He studied all of them running his hands over them "there are so many" he began to get choked up. "Luna please talk to me" he looked so sincere.

I took a deep breathe to catch my breathe. There was a fiery lump in my thought. I was trying so hard not to cry. That only made the lump in my throat burn more. I knew if I tried to speak, I would start crying. Loki looked like he really wanted to know. He didn't look uncomfortable or grossed out, he genuinely Look concerned, but I felt so ashamed of the cuts now.. How would I explain this to him without sounding crazy. I don't want to scare him aware. 

He was still looking at me awaiting my answer. why was he looking at me like that. he looks like he is genuinely concerned if i did this... why was he so concerned.

"I— "I whimpered

"It's ok, take your time" Loki said slowly.

Does he think someone else did this to me?

I took a couple of deep breathes. The lump began to dissipate.

"I don't know" I said trembling to speak the words.