𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 (𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐨 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫)

𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 64

I got to my dorm and completely broke down, sliding down my door, not putting a silencing spell or anything.

Fuck love especially with Draco Malfoy. I mean, what did I expect?

I didn't dare go infront of any mirrors to let him see the effect he's put on me, he'd probably sit back and watch the show.

Third person

He sat on the other side of her door, listening to her sobs wishing he could hold her but it was his fault.

"Y/n?" He whispered as a tear slid down his cheek, he stared up at the halls ceiling trying to keep in the tears but nothing was gonna work.

She was shoked to hear his voice, she immediately brought herself together.

"Go away, Draco." She whispered as a tear slid down her cheek as well.

"You're all I have." He whispered, holding his temples as he let out a quiet sob.

They were sat on the same spot but different sides of the door, one trying to resist and one trying to be let in.

"Go away." He could hear the crack in her voice as it hurt her to say and him to hear.

"But, I love you." The words coming out with a sob which he thought made him sound ridiculous.

"You aren't capable of love." She sarcastically but hurtfully said. He hit the carpet with his fist and banged his head against the door.

"But you make me feel something so different than anyone I've ever seen, it's always been you, darling. Can't you see that?" He whined as tears fell through his lips.

"Wish I could but you've done nothing but hurt me in the end." She smacked a hand over her mouth to keep in a sob.

"Y/n, give me one more chance, please. I will show you how much I love you." He moved his head so the side of it was against the door.

"Draco," Her voice slightly broke. "You are such a charming guy," A smile broke to his lips. "But you don't realize what you've done to me." She sniffled, his smile dropped. "And as much as I love you, I can't." She whined. "I want the best for you." She sobbed. "I want you to be able to relate with someone and fuck, yes, it would hurt me so much to see you with someone else but atleast-" She was cut off.

"You're what's best for me, darling, please let me in." He sobbed, as he stained the door with his tears. "Please just let me in." He whispered.

She gathered all the breath she could and bit down on her lip, staring off at her window.

"Draco, we're done." She whispered.

His body froze, but his heart was beating out of his chest, once it hit him with a great shock he felt nothing, nothing at all.

"Don't you dare! You're all I have! You're all I want! I'm trying to change!" He sobbed.

Her eyes widened, she really wanted to believe him but she couldn't, she was trying so hard not to let him.

"Draco-" She sobbed. "Please, just let me go, I'm a memory."

"No! You are what I want!" He sobbed.

"Please go, I can't." She quietly sobbed.

"No! I'm not gonna surrender or whatever! I'm fighting for you!"

"Leave! I don't want you here!" She practically yelled.

"Just let me kiss you." He whispered.

"O- ok." She felt shivers run up her spine as she stood up and opened her door, he was standing right infront of her, dark bags more visible on his pale face as tears were like little rivers.

He took a step forward and carefully cupped her cheek, wiping her mascara stains away from one side as he did with the other, he held both cheeks and just stared at her.

She rested her hands on his wrists that were almost touching her face.

They both broke at the same time.

"You're eyes look pretty when you cry." She chuckled as tears continued to hit the floor. He let out a small chuckle before he rubbed his thumb across her cheek bone making her slightly loose balance.

"I love you, Y/n." He quietly sobbed as he stared into her eyes.

"I love you too." She tried to smile but couldn't, not in this situation.

"I'm sorry." She whispered as she sniffled and looked away.

"Don't cry over me, darling." He whispered. "Its- it's for the best." He doubtfully said making both their hearts drop.

"But what if I'm making a mistake? What if-" She was cut off.

"Just kiss me, darling." He tried to smile but it couldn't stay as his lips began to quiver and drop.

She nodded and leaned up, they slowly kissed. It was the kind of kiss that was slow and filled with passion. All they both could taste was the salt from each other's tears. His thumbs continued to rub her cheekbones until they both leaned out.

Y/n was now rethinking her words while Draco was on the edge of agreeing and fighting a bit more. As he should, he dropped his hands to her waist.

"I can't love anyone at all, not the way I love you." He whispered as he watched a tear slide down her cheek.

"You don't love me, that's the problem, you can't love me, we don't work."

"But I know I love you, I want to marry you... I really want too and I want to live far far away and I-"

"Draco, not everything goes to plan." She guiltely whispered.

"But it can don't you want to be with me?" His voice broke, maybe she doesn't and this is her way of letting go he thought. She didn't answer, just bit down on her lip. "You're kidding." He sighed as he covered his eyes with the palm of his hand, his thumb and pointer finger 'petting' his eyebrows.

"No, Draco, I didn't mean- of course I-" She sighed and sucked her lips in as she looked around trying to come up with words.

"So you're just gonna have a big home cooked meal at the Weasley's every winter, playing foosties under the table with George while everyone is laughing. While I am at the Manor, you know who could be there and I'd be alone. All alone, while you're off having the time of your life. I love you Y/n and I'll do anything to prove it and I know I've been such a prick but I do love you-"

"I don't love him, Draco. I love you but I can't be with you."

"Why? Tell me why!" He groaned.

"Because! We don't work! Nothing we will ever try to do will fix this."

"So you're just giving up?"

"I didn't say that..." She mumbled.

"Bye Y/n." He pulled away from her.

"Fucks sakes, Draco!" She tried to grab his wrist but he already slammed the door.