Scarlett

38 - Scarlett

The sun shone through the gaps in the curtains, not that it had woken me, not by a long shot.
I had fallen asleep wrapped tightly in strong arms, my head pressed against his chest, our legs tangled together, it was how we had remained the entire night, how we were still at that moment in the morning light.
Everything about last night was amazing, it was everything we had needed, everything we had locked away for years but subconsciously craved and the moment my lips pressed his - I was gone. I loved him, I had always loved him, even when I hated him.
There was a part of me that was anxious, aching to reach for my phone I know would have been inundated within calls, voicemails and texts - there was a reason I had turned it off after my conversation with Cage, but then I looked at the man my naked body was entangled with, his eyes closed as he slept, his dark black lashes fanned across his cheek.
When I felt him beginning to move, when he pulled my body tighter against his I quickly ducked my head back under his chin.

"Hmmm, you're still here - with me" His sleepy voice was unbelievably sexy and when I looked back up at him his eyes were still closed but he had the most serene expression on his face, with his gorgeous lips turned into a smile. He was truly beautiful.

"I'm here with you Jax" I paused and traced his lips with my fingers "You're beautiful"

Jax chuckled, his eyes opening and meeting my own - his smile was reflected there too.

"Shouldn't I be the one saying that too you?"

"I mean it Jax, you look happy, you look relaxed"

"It's all you baby, you make me feel this way"

He rolled us over, his naked body pressing mine into the mattress, he pulled my hands above my head and linked our fingers, his eyes not leaving mine as he spoke,

"I want this Scar, I want nights like last night and mornings waking with you wrapped around me, I want you falling asleep in my arms every single night"

He trailed a path of kisses along my neck and across my collarbone before pressing his lip so very softly to mine,

"I want to make love to you every day, I want us to make a life together Scar, I want us together"

He kissed me, so deeply.

"I know things won't be easy for awhile Scar, I know I need to sort my shit out once and for all, but I promise you this time, I'm all in baby. You are what I want, what I need and I promise you Scarlett Stilton, I will do everything within my power to give you the life you have always deserved"

He was so sincere in every word I could almost picture us having this life that he wanted. I could see us being together, I could see us being happy, being in love and I knew I wanted it too.

"I think I want it to Jackson, I think I want everything you just said"

"Fuck, Scar. Seriously"

I nodded, wriggling my hands enough to give him the idea I needed then freed and wrapped them around his neck, I pulled him down close enough that I could brush my lips against his.

"I'm in love with you Jax, I don't think I ever really stopped loving you. I just hate it has taken us so long to get here"

"It's ok beautiful"

He smiled at me, lifting my leg so it wrapped around his waist he lines himself up and pushed slowly inside me, my eyes fluttered closed and I moaned as he entered my body, Stopping only once he was all the way in.

"We have so much time Scar, we have time to do it all, I love you Scarlett"

He didn't give me time to say it back and I don't know if it was because he didn't need to hear it or because his control had slipped away from him. He claimed my mouth in a brutal kiss, his tongue pushing its way into my mouth as his body moved against mine, our bodies pressed so tightly against each other almost as if we were one.