Scarlett

4 - Scarlett

Scarlett's POV:

Carson had a huge presence that filled our house whenever he was home and I loved every minute of it, his voice, his smell, his laughter filled every room, and happiness literally radiated from Logan when he had his Daddy home.
I think this is why I hated it so much when he was gone, the house felt somewhat empty and it was more than our 2 year old son and I could fill.

The night he came home he was reluctant to let me go five feet away from him, pulling me close, kissing me and telling me how much he loved and missed us both. Logan was attached permanently to him as well, even falling asleep soundly in his fathers arms as we curled up together as a family on the lounge, Carsons big arms holding us both, he always made us feel so warm and protected whenever we were with him.

"Want me to take him up?" I looked at my two boys, Carson smiling at the sleeping boy on his chest before he shook his head,

"I'll take him" Standing up with Logan in his arms he bent down to kiss me "Want to set up a movie?" I raised my eyebrows at him causing him to smirk "What, I want to snuggle with my wife ok?"

I laughed silently at him, nodding as he took Logan to his room. Flicking quickly through Netflix I selected a new Adam Sandler movie and grabbed a blanket from the downstairs closet, just in time for Carson to return though he was now dressed in just grey tracksuit pants allowing me to greedily gaze at his bare chest before our eyes locked together, our gaze not breaking while he moved to stand in front of me, before kneeling and kissing me softly.

"How long have I got you for this time Cage?"

He kissed me again, biting my bottom lip softly causing me to moan,

"Long enough for us to start on baby number 2"

"Cage" I warned

"What Scarlett, Loges is 2 you said we would talk about it when he was 2"

"And you said we would talk about your retirement before we had another child, or at least talk about you being around more"

"You could give up work babe, stay at home with the kids, our kids, you could come visit me when I'm away - come on baby - we make such good looking kids don't you want more?"

"Carson"

"Come on Lettie" Warm kisses trailed down my neck and across my shoulder, pulling the strap of my top down as he went.

"Cage" I moaned, enjoying the feeling of his mouth against my skin

"Please, I want a baby Lettie"

"Cage stop"

"Please baby"

"STOP" pushing him till he was sitting on the balls of his feet in front of me, running his hand over his face he was clearly frustrated, though so was I.

"What Scarlett, let's give our son a little brother or sister - it would be good for him, shit it would be good for us"

"What would be good for us Carson, what would be good for Logan - is for you to be home, he needs you around more - we both do" I stood up walking towards the stairs

"Is that it huh? Is that all you want Scarlett? Why stop there - what else is it you want"

I turned, looking at him with tears in my eyes

"You Carson, thats are all I have ever wanted - just you, yet you seem to be the only person who doesn't seem to get that"

"Lettie"

"No, not tonight ok, I just can't do this anymore tonight" turning away from him I left him standing in the lounge room.

This was a new record for us I think, usually it takes at least a day or two before we start arguing, though it's always about the same thing. It wasn't long after I collapsed on the bed that I fell asleep, one more night I had gone to bed alone - only this time my husband was actually in the house - but I felt more distant from him than ever.