Untold the truths// KTH//

36. Mom

Several days had passed. Bora and I enjoyed our moments every day. One day, after I drove Bora to school, Jin-Hyung called me that he wanted to meet me. Since I was free so I headed straight to him.

We met up at Cafe. I arrived first and waited for him. I waited for him patiently and eventually I decided to order the drink. Then I went back to my seat and looked at the clock. It's already time for work. I decided to call him but then I heard the door was opened. I turned to look at it, expecting it's him. Unexpectedly I saw a woman who gave me birth. I was shocked as she walked towards me. She sat across me and couldn't look straight at me. I couldn't say anything besides staring at her dazed.

She glanced at me and sighed, " It's been a long time." she muttered.

I was still shocked and couldn't say anything to her. I swallowed saliva and cleared my throat, " why are you here?" I tried to act cold.

" I know you don't want to see me. But at least give me a chance to talk with you." she softened her voice. " Anyway, where have you been?"

" I live my life and I'm happier now." I avoided looking at her because I would cry in front of her.

I could see her nodding at the edge of my eyes, " I'm glad you're happy. Actually, I'm here to apologize for what I have done to you. I might be so harsh to you. I might hurt you a lot. I never tried to understand you. Until now I understand it. I realized that you're the real treasure in my life but I couldn't see it and protect it. I regretted it." she paused. " I'm here to apologize to you as a bad mother. I hope you will have a good life and live happily. I don't know what's else I want besides seeing my son live a good life." she giggled and I couldn't help but let the tear rolling down on my cheek.

I wiped it and turned to look at her, " Where is dad?" I said in a calm tone.

" he's working at the province as a farmer," she said. " we decided to work after you left. I work as a chef in Itaewon. I always tried to find you but your dad always stopped me, saying that you finally found your life. We believe that you're alive and nothing bad happened. So that's why we seemed like we never wanted to find you." her eyes were teary and she wiped it not to let me notice it.

I was speechless and didn't know what to say to her. I felt guilty about it. I felt like I made the wrong decision for leaving them. I looked like an ungrateful son. They don't deserve this.

" I'm sorry..." I muttered and slouched, looking at my shoes. " I was so immature back then. I was hurt a lot until I couldn't think anything right. I feel guilty about it." I cried.

She reached her hand out and patted my head, " No no! You're totally innocent. We should've been nice to you. We are wrong. Please forgive us." she started to cry along with me.

I turned to look at her with teary-eyed, " Mom, even I always wanted to run away but when I did it, I still hurt. I miss my parents every night. I don't know if I made the right decision or not. So I feel guilty about it." I sniffed. " by the way, I live with a wealthy family. They are good to me. I even fall in love with their daughter. She's the one for me. I work as her bodyguard. I eat well and sleep well. You don't have to worry." I was shaking between saying all these because I was crying and couldn't say anything properly.

She wiped the tears on my cheeks, " My son is living his best life. I came here to see how are you doing. That's it. I don't expect you to come back. You can live your life there. But can you contact me sometimes? I really want to know about you. As a mother, I'm worried. In the past, I hurt you a lot but I hope it's not too late to forgive me." she tried to smile a little.

I started to cry like a baby. I couldn't control it. I cried out loud and clutched my hands together. My mom was crying as well. I didn't know what to do. It's kind of awkward here.