Untold the truths// KTH//

45. Letting go

[Taehyung's POV]

2 weeks without Bora was so much pain. I wasn't in the right mind doing anything. I missed her every single day. I didn't know what to eat, what to do every day. Bora took over my brain. I couldn't go a day without thinking of her. Anyways, I had been living with my mom recently. At least I wasn't homeless. I still felt snug at home.

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This Saturday night, I was at a club with my friends. I wanted to drink even though I didn't like to drink at all. But I wanted to be drunk.

As we were sitting and drinking beers, loud music was playing all over the club. It's hard to talk to each other. The beer was so bitter. I already finished two glasses. Then Jimin wrapped his arm over my shoulder and clasped it.

" Are you still heartbroken?" he leaned closer to ask me in my ears.

I was about to drink my beer but he snatched it from me and put it down on the table, " it's been 2 weeks already. Why are you still in a mess?" he snorted.

I chuckled, " Do you expect me to be happy when I lost someone I love so much? I can't be happy." my eyes brimmed with tears, looking at him.

" Let him be. He chooses to go through the pain. He will be healed soon." Yoongi Hyung said and sipped his beer.

" I think during this time you can start to know yourself better and love yourself. You might not love yourself enough that's why it doesn't allow you to stay with the one you love yet." Namjoon Hyung said wisely which made me a little better but also still hurt.

The tear rolled down on my cheek and I wiped it off, " she seems to hate me now. The last time we talked, I raised my voice at her. She looked upset." I said hoarsely. " I keep making her disappointed. I'm such a disappointment." I whimpered.

Jimin pulled me in his embrace and rubbed my back. I cried out loud.

" We're all flawed. Don't blame yourself. Take some time to think of yourself too. You look ugly these days."

I was crying in his chest hardly. He kept rubbing my back. I think that if I keep being like this, I'm gonna waste time. I should start to do something important in life.

A moment later, I went to the toilet to wash my face. As I was heading to the toilet, I saw a couple was making out. Ugh! It's hard to see others making out in a public place like this.

I ignored them and went to the toilet. I washed my face roughly and looked in the mirror.
" I do look ugly now. I'm totally a waste." I shook my head in disgust.

Then I took out the tissues, wiping water from my face. I walked out and suddenly bumped into someone. I bowed to apologize to her, " sorry."

" It's okay." she waved her hands.

Unexpectedly, that's the woman whom I had been crying about. She was in a black short dress. She wore red lipstick which was new to me. She looked sexy. Did she glow up because of the breakup?

She turned to look at me and widened her eyes. The moment she saw me, she tried to run away but I grabbed her wrist to stop her.

" What are you doing here?" I asked her in a soft voice.

She glared at me and rolled her eyes, " What a stupid question. You think I'm here to do my assignment or what?" she said quizzically.

I sighed, " Are you alone?" she released her hand from me.

" No. I'm with someone." she crossed her arms together and turned away from me.

" Soohyun and Jake?"