Untold the truths// KTH//

43. Please don't

The next day, I drove to school by myself. It's weird. I hadn't driven by myself for months. I couldn't concentrate well.

As I arrived, I parked the car and went inside. I walked faster to the class before everything around me reminded me of him. Then I got into the class and there's Soohyun. I walked to the seat and she suddenly hugged me tightly. I hugged her back and closed my eyes. I need a hug and now I get it.

She released me and looked at me sadly, " Are you okay?" she softened her voice.

I nodded with a smile, " Last time, I wasn't feeling well." I looked away, taking the study supplies out.

" I won't ask you what happened. I know you don't want to talk about it." she paused. " But I just want to say that everything will be better than before. After this suffering, you will live happier than before. I can't say when it will end. Just go through it and you will finally find a solution." she stroked my arm.

I didn't know she would give the best advice. This brought me tears somehow. I tried to hold back and faced her. I smiled, " Thank you for not asking. And yeah, I believe there will always be a solution."

" If you don't feel like studying, then don't. It's okay to take a break and deal with something else." she was sophisticated.

I shook my head, " That's okay. I'm okay. I can study." I smiled.

She pulled me in her embrace once again, " I know you need a hug. So here it is! For you." she patted my back gently.

I wanted to cry. I wanted to release all the pain in her embrace. I wanted to cry so hard. But I couldn't. We were in the classroom. I couldn't do that. So I tried my best to hold it back and released myself from her.

" Don't hug me again. I will cry next time." I insisted.

She giggled, " Then just cry. Why do you hold it back?"

" We are in the classroom, Soohyun," I muttered.

" As you should. But if you can't control it anymore, just cry, okay?" she winked and I chuckled.

After that, we sat silently. I was reading a book and she was drawing random pictures. I glanced at her and felt blessed. I had never known the feeling of having a best friend. She was truly my best friend. Someone must send her to me. She's so adorable and understanding. She never took advantage of me. She was a nice person. Now I knew the feeling of having a true friend. I was blessed.

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It's already time to go back home. I wasn't ready to go back home. I didn't want to see my house. Everything there reminded me of him. I hated it.

As soon as I arrived at the car park, I saw Taehyung was standing in front of my car. I didn't know what to do. So I just walked to my car and pretended like I didn't see him. Then he grabbed my wrist and I shook his hands off.

" What do you want?" I cursed at him.

He looked terrified and nervous, " Uhm... I'm here to fix things with you." he stammered.

I rolled my eyes, " Do we still have things to fix?"

" We haven't fixed anything yet. I'm sure we can fix it this time." he pleaded.

As I thought, I wanted to give him a chance but another thought told me it would turn out more complicated. Minho Oppa would come back in the next few days. Things must be complicated for us to keep seeing each other. Also, I didn't want to disappoint him about the arranged fiancé. It's better to end this way, without hurting each other even more. I tried to find the right words to say to him.