Untold the truths// KTH//

40. Suffering

I had no choice to do anything. I was paralyzed in a place and his phone kept loading notifications. I couldn't believe what I saw, what I just read. Honestly, I really hate liars. If Taehyung was a liar, how could I hate him?

I started to cry out loud. Meanwhile, he got out of the bathroom with clothes on. As he saw me crying, he ran to hug me immediately.

" What's wrong baby? Tell me." he stroked my hair gently. How can I deal with this? See! He makes me fall in love deeper.

I pushed him away hardly which he almost fell. I wiped the tears and stood up, confronting him. I raised the phone in front of him. He looked through those notifications. His eyes widened and he seemed speechless. The first thing he did was slouching and looking at me teary-eyed.

" Bora, please listen to me." he softened his voice.

I chuckled, " What do you want to say? Explain all these?"

He sighed, " I don't have bad intention by doing this. So you have to listen to my-"

I cut him, " Have you ever known that I hate lair? Or maybe I haven't told you that. But you should've known it. I hate it the most when people lie to me. If you don't have bad intentions, why won't you just tell me right away? Why do you keep hiding it from me? You make it worse!" I raised my voice at him while crying.

" Bora... You promised to trust me and communicate about every situation we face. So can you please listen to me explain everything? I don't expect you to forgive me but at least give me a chance to explain everything, please." he's begging and crying.

I wanted to be mature and listen to him but I couldn't accept this. I couldn't believe he lied to me. I couldn't accept the fact that he had been lying to me. I only knew that I needed time alone. I didn't want to see him anymore. I had never known him. He's not TaeTae. He's a real Kim Taehyung.

I kept shaking my head to refuse to listen to him. My tears kept rolling down. It hurt me so bad.

" Please... Bora." he still begged me to listen to him.

I looked at him with the different gaze I had ever given him. I could imagine my eyes looked like a tiger's eyes.

" You broke my trust. Do you expect me to trust you again, huh?" I snorted. " I don't know if you ever lie about your feeling as well."

" Bora! I would never do a ridiculous thing like that. I admit that I lied about losing memory but other things such as love, I would never lie about it. I do love you. I love you so much. That's why I'm scared if one day you caught me lying to you. You must not forgive me." he lowered his voice at the end of the sentence.

" If you had been scared, why wouldn't you just have told me right away? Why did you keep it until I finally caught you? You don't have any responsibility. I can't believe that the person I trust the most is a lair." I accused and my voice started to be cracked.

" Lies are bad but behind every lie has its own reason. You should listen to me once, please." He affirmed and I could see the regret in his eyes.

I wanted to listen to him but I refused my feeling. I wouldn't follow it. I felt pain in my chest. I didn't know whether I should trust him or not. I love him so much. I always feared that one day he remembered everything and he would go back to his family. Who knows the things just turned out more complicated.

" You just dragged all of your friends in this too. You got a big plan lying to me. Seriously, it's my fault for bringing a stranger home just because he said he lost memory." I scoffed at myself. " I couldn't think right that time. I was scared to be arrested. I guess I know the reason behind your lie but Taehyung-ahh!"