All I Ever Wanted: Bokuto X Black Chubby Reader

finally whole again

It had been 4 months since you woke up. You hadn't gained your memory back, both you and kotaro came to accept that this was endgame. You got a job at a bakery, working alongside your freind tendo. He was a chocolatier at the bakery and convinced you to apply. You spent your days at work with your new found best friend and your nights with the man you loved. You felt like your life was perfect. But you knew deep down bokuto still yearned for the old you, he was unable to give himself and his heart to you fully and he hated himself for that.

Y/n pov:
Work was long today, my feet felt like I was stepping in needles. My body ached , I just wanted to take a nice long bath. Once I got home I noticed bokuto wasn't here. Practice must have run late, they had a big match up against their rivals so it was to be expected. It's been 4 months and bo was still distant, he still held me alot and kissed me. But that was about it. I'm not complaining tho, I love the way he holds me ,nuzzling his head in my neck. The way he lays in between my legs, head on my stomach his big arms wrapped around my waist. letting me run my fingers through his hair after he showers, letting out little hums everytime I tugged. I walk upstairs running a bath. Setting out my clothes for tonight. I planned to stay up until he gets home, sleeping in the huge bed by myself is hard sometimes. My body rejects any idea of sleep until I feel his arms are holding me close. I dip into the warm water sinking down, letting out low hum feeling the water make contact with my skin. I lean my head against the wall closing my eyes as I felt myself drift away.

"I love you y/n" that was bokutos voice I could see his face plain as day. "I love you too" I heard myself respond but I couldn't comprehend what was happening. "GUYS ISNT MY GIRLFRIEND THE COOLEST LOOK SHES WEARING MY JERSEY." bokuto yelled as he ran in the gym. The team had their jerseys on , but we were out of school, we graduated already. "They see the jersey calm down bo." I replied as he came over to me ,pulling me in by my waist kissing me softly. "No one wants to see that." His teammate replied. One by one scenes played in my head. I thought it was a lucid dream but I couldn't wake myself up. I slowly realized my memories were flooding back one by one. It was overwhelming but as each memory flowed into my mind I felt whole again. The piece that was missing, the piece that I longed for was finally back. "I love you y/n . I love you so much . And I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I want to have kids with you and and start a huge family with you. And buy you a big house with 3 closets and a big kitchen for you too cook in. And"  we were in a fancy restaurant. He seemed to be extremely nervous. " breath kotaro don't be nervous it's ok."  I reassured him. "Sorry I was rambling. Anyways I want you to able to yes when people call you Mrs bokuto." He was proposing." kou." I felt a tear hit my cheek ,this memory felt different from the others . It was like I could feel him." Let me finish baby. I want you to be my wife, in this life and the one after. So will you marry me and make me the happiest man alive. I promise I'll make you happy and treat you like the queen you are. And I know I can be childish and distant but I promise I can do better. And I may not be good enough for you and maybe I don't deserve you. Bu-" " of course I'll marry you. Now shut up and kiss me."

The memories leading up to the car crash began coming to me in waves. I was flooded with different emotions I just wanted to be with him again. This whole time we were both so close yet so distant. I loved him . I wanted to wake and and tell him I remember.  Tell him that I could finally be who he deserved. My mind was dark no images no anything just blank. I wanted to wake up. Why couldn't I wake up. What if I stay asleep. I can't leave him again. I started to panic scared of being alone in my mind again. " goodmorning my love." I felt a hand connect to mine. " coach sent me home early yesterday , said I needed rest. So I got to see you. " He paused. "I miss you baby. " He began tearing up. " it's only been a few months but I miss you so much. I know I told you to take my time but - . " He began to break down in tears. " I don't want you too take your time. I miss waking up ,feeling the warmth of your body.  how you cling to me as soon I get home from practice. I know I said I'd wait for you forever, but what if I start to forget how you feel. What if I forget the little things like how you hate hot pineapples, or your favorite 90s movie. I play your r&b playlist sometimes when I drive home, the way you used to sing even tho you can't hold a note to save your life.what if you wake up and I'm not the man you fell in love with. What if you don't want me anymore. I know you need time to heal, and maybe it's selfish of me to ask you this. But please come back to me . I can't do this without you . Please."

I felt myself fade back into the emptiness. My heart ached. He must have suffered so much while I was gone. "Hey y/n" I heard his voice again preparing for another heart breaking memory. But it didn't come , I was still in the emptiness. "Hey come one wake up." I could Hear his voice pulling me towards him. I needed to see him. "Come on wake up."

Hey guys 🥲 it's been awhile sorry. My volleyball team was invited to a tournament and it was long. But we got second  place so that was cool.😩☝🏾 anyways I hope you enjoy this terrible writing. Yall wanted her memories back so here you go. Also tendou will be in this book alot more and so will ushi as his bf😊.  Next part will probably be smut. It's the least you guys deserve since I been MIA for like 2 months. 🏃🏾‍♀️ mmk byeee