tw suicide mentions, self harm.
tell me love is endless. dont be so pretentious. leave me. deja vú.
no ones pov
billie was calm. she was quiet. she was still. the fire that was accelerated by alcohol continued burning. swinging her feet back and forth billie glanced at the now - empty bottle of jack daniels. she knew what she was about to do and it made her happy. cooled her thoughts.
liyah knew what billie was about to do too and you got the wrong bitch if you thought she was just going to leg billie kill herself.
5 minutes ago liyah was running around the hotel frantic about where her girlfriend went until she followed the stench of alcohol up the fire escape and onto the roof of the terrifyingly tall hotel. she couldnt get out any words other than billies name.
billie couldnt do anything but look at liyah with teary eyes and flash a quick smile. suicidal thoughts and a whole bottle of alcohol dont mix well at all and liyah knew that all too well. liyah was frozen in her spot lost in her thoughts till billie let out a giggle.
that giggle turned into a throaty laugh. billie thought it was hilarious how quickly everything went to shit. she thought it was hilarious how she was gonna release a song about how much she hates liquor and drugs, yet she was sitting on a roof, very drunk, about to kill herself. she found the situation humorous.
billies pov
ive always loved rooftops and heights. who wouldn't wanna be on a rooftop with their favorite girl? liyah starts to walk towards me but i shut that shit down fast as fuck.
"get back liyah. im gonna jump." i say. i look up at her as fear flashes in her eyes but its soon replaced with sympathy.
why is she trying to sympathize with me? i don't deserve that.
wow. i really made it this far and im gonna end it with no goodbye. it'll all be over. thats what i want right? its what i desrve right?
no ones pov
aliyah didnt know what to do. she didnt bring her phone so she couldn't call anyone, instead she sat down a couple feet away from billie. she took a second to think about what she would say and then it came to her.
liyahs pov
"its not your fault you know?" i say. its only half the truth. my dad was the main reason i did it but the past hurt i had from billie was mixed in somewhere. billie looks at me and scoffs. "no point in lying darlingggggg. i wanna see the worlddd when i stop breathing." billie slurs out. she lets out a giggle and a hiccup "hey that rhymed!" and then we both laughed. i inch a bit closer, close enough to see her emotions in her eyes but not enough to startle her.
after 5 minutes of silence i jump up, and quickly snatch billie from the edge, pulling her to the middle of the roof. we dont move, she doesn't fight. its just more silence...until i can feel my shirt get damp and i can hear her whimpers. i cant do anything but comfort her right now.
im able to safely and carefully drag her into the hotel and as soon as she sees the bed she lays down, falling asleep. i change and go sit on the chair just in case she tries some dumb shit again. im not loosing her. i just got her. we deserve our happy ending and we will get it.
*flash back*
"mommy! he wasnt supposed to die!" little liyah whimpers to her sick mother after reading the horrible book. "liyah darling, not all stories have a happy ending. it is how it is." her mother weakly states. that stuck with liyah. that one statement stuck and liyah couldn't separate herself from it.
