HIM (an AmazingPhil fan fiction, Phil Lester)

Empty

He must have saw my arm when he was changing me! That's why he made a point of putting a long sleeve shirt on me, to make sure Phil didn't see them too. I broke him by being so stupid as to allowing him to find out my deepest, darkest secret and then I run.

I spin on my heels and run back the way I came. But I wasn't paying attention to where I was running so when I come to a junction I don't know what way to go. Panic sets in, what if Dan falls into an existential crisis and I'm not there, it's my fault. I yank my phone out of my pocket and call Dan, begging and pleading silently that he will answer.

Dan: "Grace?! Where are you?! I'm sorry! I, I didn't... I... Please come home... I'm such a... I just... I didn't... Pleased Grace" he sobbed

Grace: "Dan" I sobbed, it was all I was able to get out.

Hearing what I'd done to him tore me apart, how could I be so stupid! How did I not think to dress myself! I subconsciously punch myself as I listen to the sobs escaping Dans lips. I wanted now more than ever to be there with him, holding him. Telling him everything's going to be okay, that he's going to be okay. As for me, I'm not too sure but I don't have time for that at the moment, I need to see Dan, now!

Grace: "okay so don't laugh" I sniff "I'm lost" I quietly chuckle

Dan: "you're a dick" he laughs "but you're still my best friend, you're my best dick... Wait no"

Grace: "well okay..." I laugh, both of us in hysterics

Dan: "don't leave, I'm on my way" and hear a door close.

Grace: "never" I smile "thank you"

I tell Dan the name of the street I'm on and my surroundings, he tries his best to guide me to meet him half way but I'm so lost I just confuse myself even more. Finally I get too a street Dan knew and wait for him to turn up, like my knight in shining armor.

We talk and talk as I wait for him to rescue me from the big bad world, like he has my whole life. Suddenly I see him, a small figure in the distance and i jump up. My body flies down the street faster than I ever thought possible, in this moment Usain Bolt has nothing on me. I throw myself into Dans arms and hold him tighter than I ever have. I sob loudly into his shoulder, both a mixture of pain and happiness. Happiness that he was okay and he was here, but Pain because it was my fault in the first place. I'd done this to him because I was too stupid to ask for help.

Finally we release one another and walk hand in hand back the way Dan came. We walked in silence, just thankful for eachothers company. I tried to bring up this morning but Dan said we would talk about it back at the house.

I must have run pretty far because it took at least half an hour to get back to the flat. I slumped through the door expecting Phil to run and engulf me in a big Phil hug. But nothing. No noise, no movement, nothing. I glanced back at Dan who stared back at me, his eyes full of sorrow. I turned and slowly walked to Phils room, I pressed me ear against the door. Silence. I walked to the office, the kitchen and even the toilet but the discovery was always the same, an empty room.

I decide to check the front room last, in hope he would be sitting on the sofa and had fallen asleep waiting for me. But my hopes came plummeting down around me when once again I discovered an empty room. I looked around for any sign he had even been here this morning. I found one, though I wish I hadn't. Two mugs of tea at the table along with a note.

Dan+Grace,
Gone out with Cat, be home late. Don't wait up.

Phil x