HIM (an AmazingPhil fan fiction, Phil Lester)

Broken friendship

I take PJ's hand and unlock the door, I grip his hand tighter as the door clicks and he returns a little squeeze. I inhale deeply and step out of the room. I quickly glance around the hall but there's no one here. It's quiet, too quiet. I walk towards the front room, the door's closed and there's silence inside. I quietly sigh and push the door open slowly.

The first thing that greets me is Chris sat awkwardly at the table in the corner of the room. Oh no, poor Chris! I never thought, he would have had to sit here and watch his two best friends scream at eachother because of a girl he just met. I give him an apologetic smile and he smiles back. I take another step in the room and glance at the sofa, Dan and Phil are sat in silence at opposite sides of the sofa. Dan half smiles at me but Phil keeps his eyes down.

Grace: "hey..." I try to say but it comes out as more of a whisper, I clear my throat and try again "hey"

The room stays silent, no one moves or says a thing. Oh no, what have I done. I need to fix this, I don't know how but I need to do something and i need to do it quickly. I scan the room for inspiration but nothing, panic starts setting in. I've broken the best friendship I've ever witnessed, I've destroyed the only thing keeping me here. I glance at PJ and inspiration hits me! I squeeze his hand and flash him a smile, letting him know I have a plan.

Grace: "you two stay here" I say looking from Dan to Phil, who still won't look at me "Chris, I need you"

Chris gets up without question and walks over too me, I take his hand too and give him a reassuring squeeze. I take the boys out of the room and close the door. I lead them down to the end of the hall, to Dan and Phils rooms.

Grace: "I need you two to go into Dans room and get anything that reminds you of their friendship. Also try to come up with some memories you all have" I smile and take a deep breath "and I'll do the same in Phils room" I sigh

The boys nod and i release their hands as they begin to walk away. Chris walks straight into Dans room but PJ lingers by the door watching me. I try my best to give him a reassuring smile, but fail. I turn to face Phils door and a chill runs through me. There's one thing I know for sure I want, I just don't know if I can face it myself.

PJ: "you don't have to do this you know, you can come in here with Chris and I'll..."

Grace: "no, I need to do this" I cut him off "this is my fault and it's my job to fix it, but thank you" And with that i open the door.

The room smells like him, the sweet mixture of shampoo, deodorant and Phil. I inhale the smell and step further into the room. I scan the room for objects and a million memories come back to me. I look for things that I can use, I take Phils backpack and empty it's contense onto the bed. I grab the Photo frame I gave him for his birthday, The Muse ticket pinned to his wall, a picture of them smiling together at a party, a small baymax toy, their passes too Radio 1 big weekend and finally a picture that was pinned to the wall just above the bed. It was Dan, Phil, Chris and PJ and they all looked so happy. I carefully take down the picture and pace it carefully in the bag with the other things. Just as I zip up the bag PJ walks in the room and informs me he's done. I nod and put the bag over my shoulder, Chris had the same idea as me as he has one of Dans bags on his shoulders.

We all walk into the living room and place the bags on the table. I allow PJ and Chris to go first and i sit at the table. They stand infront of the sofa and place the bag on the floor. Chris is first to get something out of the bag. He pulls out a small camera and plays with it in his hands.

Chris: "This is the camera you used to film on when we went on holiday, Dan, Phil, PJ and I. We didn't really fit in because the place was really posh and we were just four lads from Britain." he awkwardly laughed "but you and Phil didn't care about the looks we got, you were so comfortable in eachothers company that it was like no one else existed" he half smiled