HIM (an AmazingPhil fan fiction, Phil Lester)

The truth

I wake up and just keep my eyes closed for a few seconds just taking everything in. I've moved to London, got my best friends back, they looked after me when I was too scared to sleep alone and best of all I feel truly happy. I slowly open my eyes and realise someone has their arms around me, my face is buried in their chest. I slowly pull away and realise it's Phil. As I turn my head I realise Dan isn't in bed, slowly I try to remove Phils arms to go look for Dan. He suddenly tightens his grip and pulls me closer than before.

Phil: "don't go" he mumbles

I look up at him in confusion but his eyes are closed, he's still asleep and his expression looks so sad. I find myself sliding my arms around him and holding him too, the sad expression instantly disappears and a small smile appears on his lips.

Phil: "hmm... I love you" me groans

My heart stops and it feels like my brain explodes. He, he loves me? No there's no way, he probably thinks I'm someone else. I mean it's been years! Why would he wait for me, he probably has a beautiful girl who treats him better than I ever could. But I can't help my self and i say the words i never thought I would again.

Grace: "I love you too, Phil" I whisper

He then squirms and as he does I take the opportunity to release myself from his warm embrace. I pull myself up and look down at my pyjamas, I don't remember getting changed. I'm wearing a pair of shorts and one of Phils shirts, I shrug it off and creep towards the door. Before leaving I take a glance at Phil who seems quite happy, I just wish that I was the reason. I leave the room closing the door quietly and begin walking down the hall to the living room. I quietly open the door, but nothing. He wasn't there, I went to check the kitchen incase he was making a cup of tea or something but he wasn't there either. It's literally 8:30 there is no way he's gone out, I'm surprised he's even out of bed...

Then it hit me, I slowly walk towards what I assume is his bedroom door and gently knock on the door. I hear a groan and quietly open the door,  there he was half naked with his hobbit hair. I let out a quiet laugh.

Dan: "shut up" he laughs rolling over to face me

He pulls the corner of the covers back, indicating for me to get into bed. I close the door and go and get into the bed. I crawl over to Dan who was lying on his back and rest my head on his chest. I've missed this, we always used to cuddle but only ever in a best friend way. He placed his arm around my shoulders and we lay in silence. I listened to the quiet sound of his heartbeat, it always soothed me. It was now I actually tried to assess what was going on in my mind. I've moved to London, my family are miles away, Dan and Phil are back in my life, I need to find a new job, Dan is my best friend, I'm in love with Phil... Wait, what? No! No I'm not. He has a beautiful girl and i do not love him.

Dan: "you know I love you right?" he whispered, I knew this was going somewhere and it wasn't good

Grace: "yeah..." I questioned

Dan: "you're my sister, you can tell me anything"

Grace: "I know"

Dan: "then what are you thinking about right this second"

Grace: "I've been awake for almost ten minutes and i haven't had a cup of tea yet" I laugh

Dan: "no, really" he laughed

Grace: "Phil..." I mumble

Dan: "and what about him?"

Grace: "it doesn't matter"

Dan: "Grace you need to admit the truth" he whispered while pressing his lips against my head

Grace: "I don't know what you mean?" I stutter

Dan: "you love him..." hearing it out loud made my heart stop "I know it, you know it but won't admit it, the only person who doesn't seem to see it is Phil. But he loves you too and I know it. All these years and he never once stopped talking about you, everyday he would bring up an old memory and then upset himself and hide in his room for an hour or sometimes even a whole day. He loved you and he never stopped loving you, I just wish you could see that too"

Dan really did want to see us happy again, it was hurting him that we were hurting. A tear rolled down my cheek and fell onto Dans bare chest. He must have felt it because instantly he was holding me tight as I cried into his chest.

Dan: "now then, let's go get you that cup of tea"

AN

Awhh, best friends :) I long for a friend like that, ugh. Do you have a best friend like this, let me know :)

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