HIM (an AmazingPhil fan fiction, Phil Lester)

Safe and Sound

My heart stops and i freeze, sat ontop of Dan with my hands clutching to the fabric of his shirt. Suddenly I'm being pulled off Dan and dragged out of the room, my legs freeze and i fall to the floor. I'm pulled to my feet and pulled into someone's arms like a child. I close my eyes not wanting to see Phil, not yet. But when I open them I'm in my room, I look up and I'm in PJ's arms as he slowly puts me down. He holds my arms making sure I've regained my balance before letting me go to lock to door. I walk over to my bed and the covers are a mess, PJ and Chris must be really close because it looks like they both slept in the same bed. I sit on the bed and pull my knees into my chest and watch as PJ walks towards me. He sits infront of me and slowly reaches out his hand towards my knee, he stops and looks at me almost as is asking permission. I half smile at him and he places his hand ontop of mine.

PJ: "I knew you weren't ready to see him and i couldn't let that happen, not until you're ready" he whispers

I give him a small nod and watch as I play with my fingers nervously under PJ's hand. I watch his hand move and his thumb stroke the back of my hand.

Dan: "NO! YOU FUCKING LEFT! SHE WAS MISSING AND YOU JUST LEFT!" he screamed

PJ: "I'll put on some music" he whispers rushing to my speakers "any requests?" fumbling to plug in his IPhone.

I slowly unwrap my arms from around my legs and walk over to the speakers. He hands me his phone and i bring up youtube, there's only one song I want to listen to at the moment. Safe and sound (video linked, play now).

As soon as the guitar begins to play I close my eyes and just absorb the words in all their beauty. The gentle voices relaxed me, I feel my whole body begin to unwind.

When I open my eyes PJ is watching me in amazement, a small smile on his face. He then holds out his hand, indicating he wants to dance. I try to tell him I can't dance but he assures me it'll be fine. I take his hand as he places my hands around his neck, he places his hands on my hips and we begin to sway. I place my head on his chest as he holds me tighter. I close my eyes and listen to the lyrics mixed with PJ's quiet heart beat.

"Just close your eyes, the sun is going down. You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now. Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound"

PJ quietly hums the tune as we begin moving around the room. Slowly and gently he guided me in small circles, still holding me tight. In that moment I forgot about Phil. I forgot about Dans outburst and that he now knows my deepest darkest secret. I forget about the shouting and screaming going on just a few rooms away from us. All I could think about was the lyrics of the song, PJ and focusing on my feet so I don't make a fool out of myself. I know just by this one act that PJ is telling me he will keep me safe, that he'll help me through this. He already has helped my so much, he held me and looked after me, he cheered me up, he showed me just how observant he was by comparing me to my favourite colour and he got me out of the room so I didn't have to face Phil. I've only known this man a few days and already he has shown me he cares so much, he's so sweet. The only people that have ever cared about me this much are Dan and Phil. I now understand why they all get on so well, they really do have a strong bond. I don't know how long they've been friends or even how they met but I hope that we all hang out together alot. I never really had friends apart from Dan and Phil so it's nice to actually have someone care about me this much.

He reaches up and takes my hands in his and extends his arms creating a gap between us, he let's go of one hand and raises the other still in mine. He slowly spins me around then pulls me back into his chest. I put my hands back to their original place and stare into his eyes. They're full of worry and care, a small smile appears on his lips before we start moving around the room again.

"Just close your eyes, You'll be alright, Come morning light you and I'll be safe and sound" he mouths

The song slowly comes to an end and we stop in the middle of the floor. I tighten my grip on PJ and hug him as tight as I can. He returns the hug with a quiet chuckle.

Grace: "Thank you" I whisper in his ear

PJ: "anytime" he whispers slowly loosening his grip "Now what song should we put on?"

Grace: "I know!" I shout running to PJ's phone

He laughs and walks over to the bed, laying ontop of the covers. I pick up his phone but it's locked, I'm about to unplug it from the speakers and take it to him when he tells me his password. I type in the four numbers and the phone unlocks. I stare at him in amazement and he laughs.

PJ: "what?"

Grace: "you gave me your password"

PJ: "yeah?" he laughs "what exactly can you do when it's plugged in, and we're locked in a room together" he laughs

I laugh and shrug, turning back to the phone. I type in the song I want and press play, I wait for the video to load and turn to PJ.

Grace: "now we've danced like you do, we're dancing how I'm used too"

And with that Ed Sheeran - sing, blasted through the speakers. PJ laughed and watched me from the bed. I began moving around the room dancing like no one was watching, I began moving my hips to the beat. I walked over to the bed and pulled him up, he was still laughing watching me. I held his hands and held him at arms length, I began moving his arms backwards and forwards at different times and he then started moving his feet. Right arm forward, left leg forward. We begin moving in unison to the music laughing at how bad we both danced. PJ held my arm and spun me around and i tried to spin him but had to stand on the bed to get my arm high enough. Once he'd spun he grabs my legs and picks me up from the bed and wraps my legs around his waist. He begins spinning so fast the whole room becomes a blur. I can't help but burst into fits of laughter and as I do so does he. This probably explains why seconds later we fall on the floor. I land ontop of him and roll off, literally crying. My face starts hurting from smiling so much, it's been so long since this happened I forgot how it felt.

The song stops and we still lay on the floor laughing. Eventually he composes himself and gets to his feet offering me a hand up. I finally stop laughing and take a deep breath.

Grace: "thank you, you're amazing" I laugh "well, not when we're moving quickly"

PJ: "back at you" he laughs

Then reality hits me, I can't stay in this room forever. At least now I know if this ends bad then I have three people to back me up. Time to put on a brave place and pretend nothing ever happened. I stay silent for a moment, no shouting. That's a good sign... Right? I take a deep breath and slowly breath out. I look up at PJ who's watching me concerned. It's now or never.

Grace: "I'm ready"