*a year later I'm on tour right now...all my music is about Nessa, I still haven't found 'the one' but to be honest I don't really want to find her. Nessa was my one and only and if I do find someone new I don't know what will happen*
J: WHATS UP TEXAS!
*everyone cheers*
J: IM GO BE PLAYING A SONG THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME I HOPE YOU LIKE IT. PRAY BABY!
(Play the song at the top)
J: READY I WANT YOU SING IT WITH ME! 3, 2, 1!
Heaven only knows when I'm in hell
None of my friends can even tell
*the crowd joins in*
I wanna fuckin' die but I never say it
Sick of gettin' high but I do the same shit
I can't even cry so I try to fake it
I hate it
I pray to God let me die in my sleep
I pray to God let me die in my sleep
You as sick as all the secrets you keep
But the truth is I don't wanna be me
I pray to God let me die in my sleep
J: READY THIS IS THE BEST PART GUYS!
Now I'm waking up and I'm not dead
Living off the words I know you said
I feel like I'm alive and I'm gonna make it
Maybe if I cry I don't have to fake it
I'm giving up my pain so you can take it
I hate it
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I'm as sick as all the secrets I keep
But the truth is I can only be me
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
J: OH WOAHHHH OH WOW OH. OH WOAHHHH OH WOAH OH
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
And now I'm sick of all the secrets I keep
I pray to God let me die in my-
*im tearing up at this point and then I hear a fan yell*
?: WHAT OR WHO IS THE SONG ABOUT?!
*I start crying*
J: um, my best friend in the whole wide whole took her life last year and um...I was a complete mess I love her so much and I couldn't handle it anymore so I took several pills went to bed when I woke up I was in the hospital and Bryce was right next to me with charli, Dixie, and my parents. I miss her everyday. And just so y'all know all my songs are and will always be about her. She introduced me to music and I'm gonna do it. Anyways please don't talk about her. me, the boys, the girls, and all our parents are very sensitive on the topic.
*I wipe away a few tears and start talking again*
J: ANYWAYS THIS NEXT SONG IS ANGELS AND DEMONS!
J: um I'll sing more tomorrow! Love you guys peace out! ✌️
*I walk off stage and Bryce engulfed me into a hug I sob into his arms like I do every show. Every time after a show I have to cry. I just see nessa everywhere and I try to ignore her but I can't I once scream 'go away Ness your not real' in front of a whole live audience. As you can probably tell that's not the best thing to happen*
J: Bryce I think if I even do one more show I'm gonna lose it!
B: shhh. It's ok just two more stops until we're home again ok?
*i nod and walk to my dressing room closing the door and soon fell asleep*
I'm still in PAIN...
YOU ARE READING
Sincerely, Ness |J.H|
Short StoryDear diary, Life is full of challenges but I couldn't fulfill mine. I was lost in my own thoughts I didn't understand how life worked and when the lights went out it all made sense...I didn't belong in this world so, I took myself out of it...
