Perri and Mitch- the sixth book special to series 'Perri and Me' about Perri Kiely.

Chapter 3 Part 7

****all throughout this chapter, I had 'earned it' by the weeknd on repeat. Think it might be one of my favourite song of all time! And btw, dv, incase any of you are reading (which I hope you're not) you guys smashed it on get your act together. Especially you, Pel ;)Xxx 20dv Amber***

I pull the covers on me. I stare at the picture of Mum holding me when I was a baby and I can't stop crying.

Mum's eyes were so blue, they were almost transparent. I was healthy. I was born and went home the next day with Mum. She always said I made her experience with babies so much easier.

It wasn't like that for me and Reid. The pain at birth was excruciating. And all for a him to be born with cancer. And it's getting worse. And it's life threatening. And now they'll take him away from us because Natalie is suing us.

There's also a picture of Perri kissing me on the night of when I won The Dance Factor. And one he took of me on our first date and I wasn't even looking at the camera because I was so nervous. And one of me trying on the wedding dress I never got to wear. And one of me and Alex looking at Diversity in magazines at the age of fourteen. And a picture of my face when Jordan first tweeted me.

He's such a d**k.

"Everything's changed..." I whisper.

But then I come across one of Pel, helping Reid walk and I can actually feel my heart tearing into pieces. Reid's smile is adorable and Perri looks so focused. But so warm and comforting and...he looks like his Dad. Which he is.

We're his parents. He should be with us.

The door opens and I don't even notice. I'm still staring at the photo of Pel and Reid. I just want to punch Natalie in the face. I feel Pel get into bed and I put the album down on my bedside table.

"Ambs..." He whispers.

I can't be bothered to turn over.

"I will NEVER let her get away with this and the boys won't let her either, okay?" He whispers again. "Please...."

He combs my hair with his finger before placing them on my neck. I'm still facing away from him. I have such a bad headache.

"You're warm..." He says. "Should I get you some-"

"There's no kind of illness I could be feeling right now that would ever compare to what he was probably feeling in that bathroom." I say, forcing each word out.

"I know-"

"He was just looking at me...." I pause, looking for words, while crying "Like he knew what was happening to him wasn't fair. Like he was wondering why I couldn't help him. Why I was just sitting there telling him to breathe, when he physically couldn't!"

I turn towards now. He wipes my tears.

"I know..." He says.

"No, you don't know, Pel!" I shout, getting out of bed.

"Where are you going?" Perri moans.

"I don't know!" I shout again, tracing circles on the wall in frustration.

Perri gets up too.

"I don't know too..." He says, slowly turning me around. "But at least I'll be here. Every step of the way, but I need to be able to trust you. And you trust me, okay?"

I look into his eyes and nod.

"Good..." He says. "And Natalie can't stop us having another one."

Really? After all this?

"Pel-"

"If you're pregnant again, they can't touch you. They'll feel sorry for you. And they can't take Reid away from his sibling. And they also can't take the unborn child. And they also can't take away a mother from a newborn child. We can prove ourselves again, Amber. We'll use the 'Let him stay with his sister or brother' campaign. And we haven't exactly been 'bad parents' to an unborn child-"