Perri and Mitch- the sixth book special to series 'Perri and Me' about Perri Kiely.

Chapter 3 Part 11

****basically, 'youth' by daughter was on repeat.

I'm sorry.

I have never actually cried while writing anything before and I did with this so....yeah I feel really bad..generally about everything. I'm just so tired and stressed all the time.

Xxxxx

20dv

Amber****

"Someone get me to Natalie's house...."Kim sighs. "It's not that bad, I'll be fine..."

"Are you sure you shouldn't go straight to the hospital?" Mitch asks.

"No!" Kim shouts.

Her hair is plaited behind her and she is leaning back on the couch.

"Pel, take me to Natalie." She says, standing up. "Just incase. I can't go to the hospital yet, the contractions aren't big enough..."

I run upstairs to Kim's room and pack her a bag. Her clothes, clothes for the baby, snacks and everything I can think of. I'm down in a flash, panting.

Kim doesn't even look me in the eye and grabs the bag from me.

"Kim..." Mitch says, placing a hand on her shoulder. "I'll get you there-"

"Don't touch me! I don't want to see you right now!" Kim shouts.

Pel grabs his car keys and goes to the door. I walk up to him.

"Pel..." I say, my voice shaking.

"Amber, just....please..." Perri whispers. "Tell Mitch to get to the hospital when I call him..."

"Pel, I just left Reid." I say, trying not to cry.

"I called Gina." He says, looking away. "She's got the keys."

I follow him to his car and he helps Kim into the backseat.

It's hard. Watching him do the things for Kim that he should have done for me.

I swallow, tears stinging in my eyes as I watch the car drive off.

I walk back into the house and slam the door behind me. Then I sit by the door and cry. Mitch comes up to me and puts his arms around me.

"I just love him so much....and hate him at the same time." I say.

Mitch continues to comfort me. He wipes a tear from my cheek then looks into my eyes.

"I feel the same way about you sometimes..." He whispers, caressing my face. "You know that right?"

'And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky one. Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.'

His lips touch mine softly at first. I don't know what to do at first. I just keep my hands by my side and close my eyes, trying to contemplate life.

It's such a funny feeling. When you know your heart is actually breaking inside of you. It's just not love between Perri and I anymore.

I can't help feeling like everything's been lost.

I take a deep breath before biting my lip then lie back on the cold wooden floor.

"What are you doing?" Mitch smiles, leaning over me.

"I don't know anymore..." I sigh. "My heart hurts the lest here.."

That was something I said to Mitch when he tried to help me three years ago.

Mitch places his knees on either side of my hips.