Perri and Mitch- the sixth book special to series 'Perri and Me' about Perri Kiely.

Chapter 2 Part 5

Perri's P.O.V

I've always been the type of person that never really wanted to share my problems. I always seemed happy and calm in front of other people. But I guess for the last seven years, since I've been with Amber, something had finally broken inside of me.

So why I'm sitting in Jordan's hotel room crying my eyes out I will never know...

"Pel..." Jordan says, quietly. "You need to tell me what's going on..."

Ash is now fully awake and pats me on the back, while looking at me with surprise and care. It feels good to have this much support.

"I..." I stammer. "Man, I...I feel...so...useless..."

I'm crying so hard that I can barely get the words out of my mouth.

I wipe my tears, trying desperately to hold them in.

"I'm sorry guys..." I say.

Ash and Jord look at each other and Jord shrugs.

"Pel..." Jord begins. "Don't worry, if...if you need to let it out, just let it out. I'm not going to judge you for being upset, okay?"

For the next fifteen minutes they just let me cry. The truth is, I'm hurt. I feel like my heart has just been broken into a million little pieces. Amber and I...we can't continue like this. I'm tired of fighting with her.

And I'm tired of her being with Mitch...

When I finally calm down, Ash starts to talk to me.

"So..." Ash begins. "I have been noticing Amber has been tired. I didn't know it was this serious. Does this have anything to do with the duet?"

"No..." I say, putting a hand to my head because it aches like hell right now.

"So why is Amber sleeping with Mitch?" Jord asks, frustrated.

"Give him some time..." Ash says.

I can tell Ash is trying to be reasonable, but Jordan is just angry. Angry that someone would hurt his 'little brother' like that.

"She can't sleep, because she's been having these nightmares...about me." I say.

"About you?" Ash asks, confused.

"Yeah..." I say. "Of me hurting her...and I can't stand the thought of that. She hasn't had...one full night of sleep in months."

"Why would she dream about that?" Jordan asks.

"I don't know..." I say. "I really don't know."

"All I know..." Ash begins. "Is that you two need to forget about Mitch, and stop arguing. It's like a rollercoaster with you two...one minute you're happy and one minute you're arguing-"

"I don't understand..." Says Jord. "So she thinks you'll hurt her...so she has to sleep with Mitch?"

"Yeah Jord..." I say, slightly annoyed now.

Jordan laughs mockingly.

"That is the worst piece of crap I've heard in ages..." He says.

"It's not crap..." Ash says. "It's his situation. Look Pel, you did the right thing. Mum's gonna go ballistic if she doesn't start getting some sleep."

Jordan rolls his eyes and I sigh.

"I love Amber really..." Jord says. "But she can be a right bitch sometimes. Especially to you. If you don't start standing up for yourself, you're not going to make it-"

"I DON'T want to be my Dad Jord!" I exclaim. "That's what we're both so afraid of. That Reid will grow up and we'll split up or something."

"That's not going to happen..." Ash says, getting back into bed now. "You're a good dad Pel...don't ever compare yourself to your own parents..."