The Trust Of My Life - A Spencer Reid Fanfic

Chapter 33: Broken memories

Frustration flows through me as I look at the case files. How can Spencer just expect me to ignore what he did last night???

I glance up at him and see him angrily skimming through some papers. I feel my heart melt a bit. God, he looks so cute when he's mad. But I quickly shake that thought off, remembering how he treated Benjamin. The rest of the team is here so I sit up straight in my chair, ready to solve this case.

"Good morning, everyone," says Hotch. "We have a long day ahead of us so I hope you all had a good night's sleep."

I yawn, knowing that I was awake half the night thinking about Spencer. "Any new information?"

"We'll find more when we get to the crime scenes."

"I'm going to the amusement park to investigate, anyone wanna come with me?" asks Benjamin.

"I'll come." I quickly stand up and walk to Benjamin's side.

"Great. The rest of you can head on over to the other two."

"Yang, are you sure you want to go with him?" Hotch looks at me unsurely.

Oh no... not him, too. "Yes," I reply firmly, feeling annoyed.

Hotch glances at Spencer, whose face is darkening. "Alright. Call us if you have any new information." With that, Benjamin and I leave the station and drive to the amusement park. I sit in the passenger seat, looking out the window.

Keeping his eyes on the road, Benjamin questions, "So, how long have you and pipe cleaner boy been dating?"

"Don't call him that," I state, defending Spencer. Even though I'm mad at him, I'm not going to let people talk him down. "And we've been dating for a little over a year now."

"He's not worth it," Benjamin says matter of factly. "A pretty woman like you deserves a man that can protect you and make you happy. You know what I'm saying?"

I start getting annoyed. "Yes, and Spencer is all of that and so much more."

"Lili, I'm gonna be honest with you. I had a major crush on you back in highschool."

I look up at him in surprise. "Really?"

Benjamin blushes. "Yeah, I just never had the gut to ask you out. You always act so cautious around me, even though we were lab partners and friends. Like you always seemed so wary around everyone."

I laugh. "It's called trust issues. But now that I'm with Spencer, I'm much more relaxed."

"Listen, how about you and me, we have a little fun. I'll take you out on a date."

My jaw drops at his absurd suggestion. "What? You do realize that I have a boyfriend, right?" We stop at a red light.

"How about a little kiss?" Benjamin leans towards me.

"No, stop!" I push him away.

"Bitch." He glares at me. The light turns green and we continue to drive. He takes a right onto a street.

"You were supposed to take a left." I point to the GPS map. He doesn't reply and keeps on going. "Hey! Did you hear me? You were supposed to take a left earlier."

"I'm sorry that the last time you saw your boyfriend you were mad at each other," he whispers evilly.

"What?" I look at him confused. Before I can say anything else, Benjamin pulls out his taser and tazes me. I scream in pain but no one can help me. Before I know it, my head hits the side door and I start to feel dizzy.

As I slowly black out, I only have one person on my mind.

Spencer....

I wake up to hard slapping in my face. "What the hell?" I swat at my attacker.

"Ah, so you're awake, Lili," whispers a familiar voice.

I open my eyes and see Benjamin's face staring back at me. I groan as I remember everything that happened. I look around and realize I'm in some sort of cage. "Why are you doing this?" I try to move but I'm tied up with something.

"I wouldn't do that if I were you," he says nonchalantly.

I look down and blood drains from my face when I see that I'm tied with bombs and explosives. Oh, God—Benjamin's the bomber.

"Pipe cleaner boy won't be here to save you now, won't he?"

"The team will find me." I scowl at him, trying not to let him see my fear.

He laughs evilly. "You know, I wasn't even going to plan on using you in my final plan to bomb the zoo. But that boyfriend of yours really pissed me off, so I figured I take the one thing that he cares about the most."

I gasp in horror but quickly compose myself. Don't let him see your fear. I remind myself. Clearing my throat, I give him an expressionless look. "The zoo?"

"Yup. I'm going to bomb all the cages containing the lions, tigers, elephants, rhinos, you name it, all the big guys. They're going to help me with taking everyone down."

I spit at him. "You son of a bitch—"

"Hey!" He sticks his face right in mine. "You're the little bitch that's dating that nerdy FBI agent!" I smash my head into his face and he falls back, blood coming out of his nose. "You're going to regret that." He grabs his police stick, whacking me over the head and the world goes dark again.

Darkness.

All around me I look, I see darkness. I try to find a source of light but there's none, so I call out the one name that is most important to me.

"Spencer!" My voice echoes but there's no reply. Tears form in my eyes when I realize I'm all alone.

I lie down on the cold hard ground, thinking about my last memory of Spencer, but all I see in my mind is his angry face. I start to cry, unable to remember why he's mad. I try to think about our good times but I can't seem to remember any.

That's strange.

Squeezing my eyes tighter, I rack my brain, trying to think of one good memory of him. But all I can see is the image of his angry expression.

I love you, Spencer. I think to myself. All I want is for him to be here with me right now and tell me why he's mad so we can work it out together. I want him to hold me tight and kiss me—letting me know that everything is okay. He's the only person that I need in the world but yet he isn't here.

I sigh. It's confusing, because even though I have no memories of him, I can still remember the feel of his soft lips when he kisses me, or how pleasurable it feels when he gently nibbles my neck.

I take a shuddering breath and hug my knees closer to me, shivering from the freezing ground. I start to mumble his name, "Spencer, Spencer, Spencer, Spence...?" My eyes snap open in horror when I can't even remember his name.

Now all I have left is an image of a man's angry face. I don't even know who he is but for some reason I feel like I love him so much. When the image begins to fade I start panicking.

"No!" I sob, trying to cling on to it, it's the only thing I remember now, but it disappears and I can't see it in my mind anymore. Soon, I'm just lying there on the ground, staring up at the never ending darkness, not knowing where I am or why I'm here. I close my eyes, tired from the crying. And just moments later, I fall into a deep sleep.