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Chapter 35: Arshen's Confession

Arshen's PoV:

"Bakit ako? Do you love me, Arshen?"

Parang tinakasan ako bigla ng lakas nang marinig ko 'yun. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang panlalamig ng aking kamay.

I swallowed a lump in my throat. "W-What? Ano bang klaseng tanong 'yan, Yana?"

Should I tell her the truth? Pero damn. Hindi pa ako handa. I'm quite scared kung anong magiging reaction nya kapag nalaman nya ang totoo.

She heaved a sigh. "I know that you're not that dumb, Arshen. I want to know kung bakit ako ang pinili mo." She said and I can hint a dedication in her tone. Gusto nya talagang malaman.

I bit my lips. Gosh. Anong sasabihin ko? Baka kapag iba 'yung sinama ko ay magwala na naman ang isang 'to. Napapikit ako nang mariin.

"Geez. Alanganan namang iba ang pinili ko? Eh diba 'in a relationship' tayong dalawa sa tingin nila?" At pagak pang napatawa. I'll just go with the safest answer.

Kitang-kita ko ang pagrehistro ng kakaibang emosyon sa mukha ni Yana kahit na saglit lamang 'yun. It was pain.

"Y-Yeah, right. Dahil pa rin pala 'yun sa deal natin." May halong lungkot nitong turan. She's also smiling bitterly and it really hurts the hell out of me.

Fuck. I want to take back what I've said. Nakaramdam ako agad ng regret at guilt.

She turned her back against me. "You know, we can just wait na matapos ang 7 minutes. Sasabihin ko na lang na nagmake-out tayong dalawa."

I really want to slap myself right now. Gosh. Nakakainis. I'm really stupid.

Saglit na katahimikan ang namayani sa aming dalawa. The tension was present in the air. It's too thick.

Walang imik akong naglakad papunta sa kanyang direksyon. Maingat na ipinulupot ko ang aking kamay sa kanyang beywang. I'm hugging her from the back.

"Yana, I'm sorry. It's not what I meant.."

"No. It's okay. I understand it naman." She said pero hindi ako masyadong kumbinsido.

"Please look at me." I'm glad na sinunod nya naman ako. Hindi nya na rin tinanggal pa ang kamay kong nakayakap sa kanya.

And there, I met her stunning eyes. Ngunit nababahidan ito ng lungkot.

"I... Ahm..." Fuck. I'm lost with words. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko. Taimtim na nakatingin lamang sa akin si Yana.

I composed myself first. I need to tell her. Dahan-dahan kong kinuha ko ang kanyang kamay. I placed it on the side of my heart.

"Can you feel it, Yana? My heart's beating so fast, right?" She nodded her head slowly.

"You know, lagi ko 'tong nararamdaman every time I'm with you or whenever I think of my girlfriend. I can feel the tingling sensation na akala ko ay sa mga libro ko lang nababasa, Yana. I can't describe the feeling but all I know is I'm happy and contented." I said while directly looking at her eyes. Gusto kong malaman nya na sincere at totoo ang lahat ng sinabi ko.

"I love you, Yana." There I said it. Parang nawala ang bigat sa pakiramdam ko.

I glanced at her. Hindi ko mabasa ang expression na nakapaskil sa kanyang mukha. But I can say that she's stunned. I'm quite nervous.

Maya-maya pa ay nagsalita na rin sya. "Then prove it to me, Arshen. Simulan mo na 'yung dare sayo."

"I'm willing to do that, Yana pero..." I stopped in my track. "Hindi ba parang maikli ang 7 minutes sa atin?"