Lumapad ang ngiti sa labi ng aking lola nang makita ako. Finally, nakauwi na rin after two months.
"Hay Alliana, mabuti naman at naalala mo pa ako." agad niya akong yinakap ng mahigpit.
"Syempre naman la, ipapamana mo pa sakin yung lupa mo diba?" biro ko. medj.
"Ikaw talaga." agad siyang tumayo at kinuha sa ilalim ng lamesa niya ang malaking container na naglalaman ng kanyang mga pagkain rito sa kanyang kwarto.
Pinagmeryenda niya ako at nagpatuloy ang aming kwentuhan.
"Kung ano ano pinapanood ng mga lolo mo simula ng nagkaroon niyang wifi wifi na yan. Apaka ingay nila." natawa ako. Nagpakabit na kasi kami ng internet dito sa bahay dahil kailangan rin naman.
Lumabas na akong ng kwarto niya dahil magpapahinga na daw muna siya. I went upstairs to visit my other lolo's and lola's.
Halos anim silang mag kakapatid dito, tumanda nang magkakasama sa antique na bahay na ito.
My lola's doesn't have their own family, dalawa nga lang ang nagkaroon ng sariling pamilya. Ang mga lolo ko.
We have a big family, and my grandmother's never been alone here, especially living in a compound with our relatives.
May mga sarili ng buhay ang iba, ngunit hindi nakalimot na umuwi dito.
To kill my boredom, tutal may internet naman na dito. Nanood nalang ako ng mga videos sa youtube.
Naka upo ako sa isang upuan at nakapalibot sa akin ang mga puno kaya masayang tumambay rito.
"Love is always easy." this one Youtuber tells in her vlog.
Na kung nahihirapan na daw, is it still worth it? No. Sabi dito.
We need to quit if the other one is only struggling. Because why would we need to suffer alone if you both are in that relationship?
Diba hindi na iyon patas?
Ano ba naman itong mga napapanood ko!
Pero sabagay, we need to hear some stories from people who experienced first hand and learned something from the heartaches and struggles to give as possible outcomes of things.
Kasi nga sa kanila nangyari na. Pwedeng ganon rin ang ating hahantungan.
I continued watching...
"If we feel that its not worth it, move on. Marami pang iba diyan."
They say,
"I don't believe that we only have one special someone. Maybe there are two that will treat us the way we want to be treated. Napalaki ng mundo, we just need to wait and find the perfect person."
Someone in this world will treat us the way we want to be treated hah?
But seriously? We will wait for that someone because it will come to its perfect time?!
Pero bakit yung ibang mga tao, there is no someone that comes to their life. Wala.
My lola's gets older without a husband. All they have is relatives that will take care of them.
There are people that have not given that 'someone'.
Natapos nalang ang buhay at nanatili parin sa punto na iyong 'someone that people expected to come has never give a chance to meet. Or maybe wala naman talaga.
That happens to many people, na hindi pangkaraniwan ang buhay. Na hindi na naghahangad na mayroon pang dadating. Because they feel contentment in themself and contentment in what they have.
Hindi lahat mabubuhay sa piling ng isang tao na tingin nila magbabago ng ikot ng kanilang mundo.
Kaya minsan pag may nag sasabing,
"Marami ka pang mahahanap diyan. Hindi pa yan yung para sayo. Merong isang taong nakatakda para sa iyo. Mahahanap din natin iyong para sa atin."
Then why there are people who are getting older alone? There is no one beside them. Like my grandma's.
As I say,
Kasi nga sa kanila nangyari na. Pwedeng ganon rin ang ating hahantungan.
"How can you say if it's the one?" tanong sa vlog na pinapanood ko.
And then I remember someone tell me na, hanggat maari wag papasok sa isang relationship na sa tingin mo sa umpisa palang laro lamang ito. Or if we think it's not the one. Kase as we continue entering in those kinds of setups, tumataas daw ang standards natin.
Sabi niya, we will expect more. Hahanapin na natin iyong best. At hindi daw iyon maganda dahil we tend to hope for perfect na hindi naman pwede. Kaya dapat chill lang muna.
And if we think it's the one? Pursue.
But don't let it ruin you. Because the one, will make you feel the best things and everything felt easy at the end. Pwedeng hindi sa umpisa, or sa gitna, but if its the one, its worth it.
Sometimes we think na its the one that is best for you, kasi nakita mo sa taong yon iyong mga bagay na hinahanap mo. It's your ideal one.
And then one day, you realize that you are too focused on the best things that you didn't realize you are living in your fantasy.
Hindi mo na nakita iyong mga bagay na hindi maganda because you give your whole attention on the bright side.
And that 'the one' will make you value yourself more. periodt.
hindi ka niya sisirain.
We help a relationship grow, but that doesn't mean we will work it alone. The two of you should be willing to work it. It's an partnership duty, walang mas mahina, walang mas lamang, walang mas malakas, walang mas may karapatan. Because in the end, the two of you will be in that relationship.
If the simplest things felt hard, imagine the suffering you will feel when you are in the stage of the most problematic things.
You two should be willingly doing the best.
Take it easy when starting, but don't let it change you.
But,
Not all will be experiencing those. Hindi pare parehas ang mga bagay na nakatakda sa atin. We all come with different ends.
How about me?
Can I choose what might happen to me? Di ba masasaktan kung ganon? imposible dzuuhh.
Wow, nakatapos din ng one shots😱.
May 16, 2021.
1:20 AM.
by: christiane ivy<33
