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Do you fell that?
The feeling of wanting something you cant name.
It lead to uneasiness and lack of sleep.
Still waiting to let your mind shut all the thoughts you cant voice out.
Ito yung sobrang daming iniisip na nakakabaliw.
Dahil wala namang konteksto ang bawat salita. Talagang gusto lang ako nitong mabinge at mahirapang huminga.
Its wanting for new things.
This cycle suffocates me.
I want some distraction.
Something that makes me name all the thought and tge uncomfortable feeling I always have.
I badly want to sleep, because I know that it will shut all the thoughts.
But sometimes my dreams is still connwcted.
Hindi ko na alam.
The higher the volume of the music im playing the more it distracts me of the thoughts.
Ang hirap na kahit gustong matulog, hindi ako hahayaan at ang sarili ang magpapahirap sa akin.
Ayaw ko na.
Nakakapagod mag isip.
Wala bang bago?
Gusto ko maisulat lahat ng nasa isip ko ngunit sobrang hirap.
Ang daming hadlang.
Ayaw ko na talaga.
Pwede ma bang magpahinga?
Huminto nalang sa daloy ng buhay ko dahil ang hapdi ng tubig na tuluyan akong pinapaso.
Hayaan niyo nalang akong malunod dahil dun ko marardaman ang kalayaan ng utak ko.
All I want os peace.
But who i am to get what i want.
I dont think we deserve what we want.
Because I always feel empty.
Lets just stop.
The music is becoming a cycle and cycle scares me.
It make me feel suffocated.
Now I dont have something to distract myself with the toughts that to loud with my silence.
Lets end this.
Its not enough.
Goodbye.
11/29/21
1:00 AM
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christiane ivy.
