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I really can't believe it. My dad. He just really tell me that he's going to marry again. After my mom died, me and my dad is each others companion.
Not until, ipinakilala niya sa akin itong babaeng ito. My dad is ten years older than her.
Iyong iniisip ko dati na pwedeng mangyare, asa harapan ko na ngayon.
They are both smiling at me. They look happy, while me? I felt like the world turn its back on me.
I promise to myself that no one will ever replaced my mom. After she stop battling cancer and finally rest forever, it felt like I lost everything. I'm ten years old at that time.
It felt like it makes me matured instantly because I already lost the most important person in my life. Five years without my mother leads me to a new Catana Elizabeth Sarmiento.
As they say, losing someone is a constant pain that we need to live everyday. I felt like I will betray my mom if the pain will be gone. Because even though I dont want to admit it, my mom's absences does mirrored all my pain.
And now finally seing my dad being happy to a new woman is also my pain.
Maybe I'm selfish, pero nanay ko yun eh.
"She will stay here as we prepare for the wedding." my dad.
"Really? Wow! Really Dad?" I laughed,
"Okay, but can we talk?" I finally compose my self and asked him.
"Sure anak, ano ba iyon?"
"Can we talk privately? Tayong dalawa lang?" I smiled sarcastically and look at the girl beside him.
I stood up and go in his office. I heard him saying wait and finally walk beside me.
"Really Dad?" panimula ko.
"Anak, don't tell me na hindi mo siya kilala. I always talk about her." he said like its enough reason for him.
"I don't even remember anything about her. Ang alam ko lang, you are talking about having her as your scholar. Hindi ko naman alam na papakasalan mo na pala." napailing ako.
Huminga siya ng malalim. Now He is looking strees because of me? Kasalan ko ba?
"Catana, anak, She is kind. She is also smart. May pangarap nga siya kaya ko siya ginawang scholar. She doesnt have enough money for her studies kaya nga I help her." I can't belive him. He held my shoulder and hug me.
"Anak, when you are old enough you will understand me. Mag mamature ka pa. We can't really avoid love, sabi nga nila diba love is in the air." He laughed and all I can just think about is my Mom. I don't even find anything funny in this situation.
Lumayo ako sa kanya at diretso siyang tinignan sa mata.
"How about my Mommy? Do even remember her Dad?" I said still containing my voice. I know any moment I'll cry.
"Anak of coures, you resembles your mom. Of coures she will always be remembered, you always makes me remenber her." he smiled. Hearing all his words right now makes me mad. For some reason I forgot that his my dad.
He felt different. He is smart. I hope it still be.
But looks like I'm not enough to make my Dad contented. I can give him a five whole paper of my explanations. Back to back pa.
But as I see him laugh and looks happy with his new wife makes me forgot it all and all I can feel is betrayal. I can't accept it. And I will never be.
