Day - ONE

Best of times

Sophie's POV

Those were the memories I would cherish for the lifetime since last six months we have been together through all thick and thin. Alarick makes sure I am being loved regardless of my craziness.

My breathetaking handsome boyfriend sat in front of me gazing down at the menu beneath his long lashes , crossing his legs onto each other and our eyes mingled I gave him a faint smile stretching from one ear to another to my astonishment he did not reverted it.

A shiver on anxiety ran through my spine. Will he leave me ? I thought at back of my mind.

His eyes narrowed and he started to scrutinize my form he looked from ear to ear from top to bottom , my eyes that were covered with full fledged makeup , dressed in baggy clothes three times my size as his eyes went on my hands I attempted to conceal it putting hands onto each other.

My demeanor seems quite skeptical or unconvincing for sure. People were hawking their eyes out seeing me dressed like that on usual summer afternoon. Alarick and me sat in the same spot the local cafe where we met each other for first time on date and we tend to have romantic dates will always have this place at special. Always special.

' Alarick , I am not hungry to be precise.' I suddenly lost my appetite and he examined me under his lashes .

' Why ? I am sure you haven't eaten anything.' He enquired running his hand in his hair. Then setting his eyes again to me.

After few minutes his order came I sat there twiddling my thumbs . He didn't urge me further to eat something after refusing him for gazillion times.

If he came to know. I was shuddered by the thoughts. I saw him under eyes silently finishing his waffle bit by bit. My future with him will crumble like house of cards.

I glanced around random people chatting , passing smiles and having good times with each other. None of these overly delighted faces could drift my thoughts from reminiscing the horrible episode of the early morning. A bolt of shiver ran down my spine about the scars that were ripped opened beneath my clothes whenever cool breeze touched it they burnt they were burning.

Feeling all the intensity of the mishappening that took place today. I was on the verge of breakdown again. I wanted to get back to home and cry my eyes out. I was in between the crowd hoarding behind me I flinched my hands into fist and clenched my teeth.

Alarick saw me with corner of his eyes he saw me sitting on the corner almost shrinking my form. Being normal by not being normal was no longer helpful.

' What's the matter ? ' He asked me with genuine concern I peeked him from my shades he looked totally clueless.

' Didn't Rebecca told you that I am sick.' I screeched from top of my lungs almost people sitting around us started staring at us. My heart was beating loud I could hear my heartbeat through my ears.

' Still. I want to know.' In a swift he got up from his chair leaned forward and touched my forehead by his knuckles to test the temperature of my body. In a reflex I threw his hand away before it reached on my forehead. He then sat on the chair in front of me.

' Why are you being so unreasonably annoying?' I bawled out in public but what happened next was totally my fault.

His eyes rested on me for few minutes seeing people around he felt humiliated by my conduct. He sat there he took a deep breathe in and out then he stood up from the place and started to go out.

I can not let him go nobody validates me more than him , I know I was no good enough girlfriend for him.

I sat there seeing him tears started falling from my eyes I stood there brawling my eyes out finally. I let all the emotional baggage I was carrying out . I sat there crying like a child lost in between strangers in big mall.

Although he was furious by my action he looked at me and his eyes softened. He stopped in his tracks his legs took him towards me. He caressed my hair and ran finger through it kissing my forehead and appealing to me to calm down.

Alarick looked at people around us and parted his lips ' My girlfriend suffers from bipolar disorder. She can be impulsive. I am so sorry for the inconvenience caused.' He apologized for my behavior and grabbed my arm and made me stand on feet my legs were woobly and still he managed somehow.

He slung his arm around my shoulder almost caging me into his chest tightly while we walked on the lane. His face was stock- still he was displeased and very much offended by my actions inside the cafe.

On the other hand he was not letting me go but still didn't looked into my eyes.

' Alarick , please talk to me.' I begged atleast hundred times he doesn't even once looked down at me.

When I tried to get off his clutches so that I can stand in front of him and dare him to look into my eyes when I started to move out his arms were more tighter around my shoulders.

There is no one responsible for my capricious behavior I was myself agitated by my own guilt and shame.

We passed the lanes after lanes his hands left my shoulders but we walked aside each other I crossed my hands in front of my chest while walking while his hands in pockets of his jeans , striding forward with his long legs.

We reached my apartment.

' Alarick, why don't you talk to me ?' I looked at his eyes disappointment flung over our both faces but I could not bear his resentment towards me.

' Sophia , I will pick you up at evening at Jasper's farmhouse party.' He just said that whole time looking on the ground. ' One more thing Sophia.' He glanced straight into my eyes crossing every distance between us. ' I l--ove you.' He stuttered from nervousness but that took my breathe away.

There are only two times I have heard that heartfelt confession. Alarick is man of few words and the word that really had an impact like this one did. I forgot all my pains after his statement but I did not returned it back because only I knew the reasons but his face was disheartened after I turn around and get inside the house.