Following The Stars (UNDER MAJOR CONSTRUCTION!)

Chapter Twenty

So hi. This is the song from Sam Smith. You can watch it on YouTube. It's called I'm Not The Only One. I hope you are enjoying my book so far. Well byee. ☻

Hours pass on, and I don't speak to Tomas at all. I'm hurt inside, it feels like hell. He broke my heart, now I'm angry and sad at the same time.

It's dark outside, and I hear my phone vibrating and beeping. It's from Tomas. I have no heart to talk to him, he crumpled my heart up. He's the reason why I'm sad, why I'm shattered inside, why I'm completely pissed.

There's another voicemail.

Mia please pick up your phone. Please, I'm begging you. Okay, I'm really sorry about today. But I can explain.

I love you Mia.

My heart stops completely. He just said he loved me. But how could he? How could he love me, he kissed Jennifer. Pain shoots through me, I remembered how he felt against my lips, how he embraced me, how he asked me to homecoming. Now the memories haunt me. I am completely and utterly broken, my cheeks are wet with tears and mascara mixed together.

I'm listening to Sam Smith, he's the only one who knows how I feel. He's the only one who knows the pain.

You and me, we made a vow

For better or for worse

I can't believe you let me down

But the proof's in the way it hurts

For months on end I've had my doubts

Denying every tear

I wish this would be over now

But I know that I still need you here

I grab a pint of butter scotch ice cream and sit on my bed. I start to watch my favorite show White Collar. I can finally get mind of Tomas and look at the beautiful Matt Boomer. I go through at least five seasons, until my doorbell rings.

My parents are out for a convention about robotics or something, so they'll be back late. I hear banging on my front door.

"Mia please please please open the freaking door. I need to apologize." Tomas yells.

I start to break down again. He hurt me, and I let him in. He kissed Jennifer and then broke me.

He lied to me

He hurt me.

He destroyed me.

He loved me.

But he loves Jennifer.

I don't know what to do. I wish I never moved to Colorado. I wish I hadn't met Tomas. I wish I hadn't fallen for him. I wish he didn't break me.

Pain absorbs me, and I start to cry, again. I slowly slide to the floor. I wrap my arms around me legs and pull them up to my chest. I just cry and cry until my breath becomes shallow, my throat develops a hurting feeling, my vision starts to blur, and my hands begin to shake.

My house is dark and the only light that illuminates my house, is from the lamp from the kitchen. It's about seven, and I can still hear my phone buzzing from the countless amount of voicemails, text messages, and emails from Tomas.

But he's not worth it anymore.

He hurt me.

My mind go through a the events that happened in the afternoon. The way he kissed her. The way he wrapped his arms around her. The way he destroyed me. It's all too much. Now I don't know what to do. Should I go to homecoming? But risk being seen by Tomas? Or just stay at home?

I loved him.

I put my heart out there.

And he crushed it.

Now there's no second chances.

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