The one for me~ Paddy Holland

Pt:11 talking to the moon

Just a little heads up I made sure to do a 1 long loop of the song because I don't know how fast you read!!!

Yesterday after Sam saw us make out we got really embarrassed so I suggested to go to mine and have a movie sleepover like we used to do as kids. But as always something or someone should I say ruined my plans,
It was Harrison obviously, but what made it ok was he was watching a movie in the basement with Amy, I am really happy for them he just needs the guts to ask her out. But anyways instead of watching the movies down stairs I decided me and paddy would just go and watch them upstairs. And now I'm awake and can't really remember falling asleep, I mean I can remember falling asleep but now how I got into a cuddling position with paddy. So here I am stuck between the boy I loved arms and can't break free, but I don't really mind that was in till I felt a kiss on my cheek and hearing a whisper from paddy: "you gave me one I'm giving you one in return"
No joke my heart stopped for a second how did he... wait a minute he was awake that sneaky sod. I decide to turn slowly acting asleep with a cute little smile on my face.
To be honest I don't know what we are because we kiss and make out all the time and yesterday at his we nearly did the✨deed✨
I push that out of my mind as I'm face to face with paddy but still pretending to be asleep and I can feel is hot breath on my face. I quickly ponce up and start attacking his face with little kisses all around his face except his soft pinkish lips.
P: el, el,elllll
E:mmm
P: stoooppp
E:no
P: fine I'll have to do it my way then
Paddy rolls over so I'm now underneath him and he starts attacking me with little kisses too.
E:pads, pads, padddyyyyy
P: mwa, mwa
E: stop your tickling me
P: ok well how about this
His kisses get softer as he goes to my jaw line then down to my neck nibbling and sucking at little bits of skin. I couldn't help myself I let out a whimpered moan which made paddy softly moan next to my ear. I have wanted this for such a long time now and I had to ruin it by asking paddy to stop.
E: paddy stop
P: what have I done something wrong - paddy gets off of me and lays down beside me
E: no nothing is wrong it's... it's just that
P: no Ella I get it you don't love me anymore... but if that were true why are we always kissing.
E: paddy I do love you I just can't do this to myself... I can't, no I won't get attached to you a way I would a boyfriend because-
Paddy butted in by saying: wait you love me, like love me in this time period...
E: god I just ruined our friendship - I quickly get out of my bed and start pacing the floor and pushing my hair back. As paddy jumps out of the bed I look up at him and we lock eyes and then he says: Ella listen you haven't ruined our friendship at all... - paddy grabs onto my hands -
It actually does ruin our friendship because... I love you too - and with that paddy leaned in and kissed me-
I could tell today was going to be a good day,
P: wait does this mean your my girlfriend now.
E: well I mean you haven't asked me yet
P: oh right yess, umm Ella Miley osterfield will you be my girlfriend
E: hmmm I'll need to think about that one
P: oh come on Ella
E: I'm kidding, of course I will baby
P: already calling me names I see
E: don't be a baby about it baby
P: ha ha, now get here so we can snuggle... please
He looked at me with those beautiful brown eyes with his lips in the puppy dog face and I couldn't say no, I jumped next to him.
E: see you are my little baby
P: who you calling little your like a smurf
E: well I think smurfs are cute so suck on that.
- paddy raps his big arms around my back as my head lays on his chest and he kisses my head-
P: Ella you know that this is all I ever wanted right.... to be able to hold you like this when I wanted to and to kiss you all the time... I just wanted you, it's always been you- Ella are you even awake.
P: I guess not we'll I need to go to mine I'll text you that I'm at home in like 30 minutes.
- when paddy left I cried listening to what he said on repeat... why did I leave, Maybe if I had stayed I could of had a kid with paddy by now -
It's night time now
E: dad I need your help, I don't know what to do, I hate the fact you are gone, why would this happen to you when you are one of the nicest people in my life, I.. I just miss you so much - I start to cry -
E: I remember when paddy first stayed round and you wouldn't let him sleep in my room because he was a boy - I laughed -... and when I told you that he was gay so that he could stay in my room.
Then later that week I found out you knew I lied because you and Dom were always close and you two knew paddy wasn't gay at all...- I cry a little -
E: dad I just need you back and I know that my neighbours probably think I'm crazy talking to the moon-wait that could be a song, thanks dad.
I run and grab my song book and start to write
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back, I want you back
My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I had, you're all I had
At night, when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the moon
Trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me, too
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Oh-oh
I'm feeling like I'm famous, the talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah, I've gone mad
But they don't know what I know
'Cause when the sun goes down, someone's talking back
Yeah, they're talking back, oh
At night, when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the moon
Trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me, too
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah
Do you ever hear me calling
(Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah) oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
'Cause every night, I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me, too
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Oh-oh
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away...

I run down stairs and ask if Harrison will record me again so I can post it on my IG (Instagram)
I sing the song while playing my guitar to the melody in my head. Then I ask Harrison if he could send me the video, and him being the nicest brother in the world also posted it on his.