The one for me~ Paddy Holland

I think im ready

It's been 3 days since the wedding and I don't know how to feel but Ik that I want to talk to paddy and try to be friends again because I miss him, he was there for most of my life before I left.

I open up my phone and hover over the contact that says 'padster' on it and decided to unblock him. That's when hundreds of notifications came through, at this point I was crying, he tried to reach out to me but I basically ghosted him. But he deserved it, right? I read through the messages which might have been a bad idea because it was like a waterfall coming out of my eyes, and then I couldn't read them anymore because my eyes were covered with a blur. When I wiped my tears I started to text paddy:

Me: hey umm can we talk today
Padster: yea ok where and when
Me: the cafe near are old school at 1:30, or we can walk there together.
Padster: idm whatever makes you feel comfortable,
Me: ok I'll knock on your door at 1:15
Padster: ok see you then

I had this weird feeling in my stomach and I felt it before and then a smile rose on my face, I was finally seeing paddy again and I have gotten over being cheated on because I love him but I know that he doesn't feel the same so I just want to be friends again.

(Time skip, bitches)
I was already to go to the Holland's but just as I grabbed my keys and was about to walk to the door there was a knock, I opened the door and was confused to see paddy at my door
"I thought I was going to knock on your door" I say with a giggle, shit I just giggled and I have to keep up the angry act, but I guess that's out the window. "Oh I thought you wanted me to pick you up" he had a walk smile on his face.
We started walking to the cafe as we talked about the last year of our life that we hadn't spoke about to each other, he even told me that he had secretly came to my performance of Beetlejuice with and without the Holland's and my family. And when we got to the cafe I decided that we should order for take out so that we could sit at the park on the swings, as we made our way to the swings I said the worst thing I could say
"So umm where is amber" as soon as I said the name 'amber' paddy's smile faded, "oh umm we broke up a while ago..." silence filled the open air until he carry's on speaking "we broke up about last valentines because she cheated on me with my best mate" I felt bad but he had done this to me and he definitely needed to know how it felt "wait John" "yep John" "well you deserve it, now you know how it feels" "I mean it feels terrible and I'm so sorry and even surprised you are talking to me now" he said with a sad smile "padster you are one of my favourite people in the world of course I would forgive and forget, because you have always been there for me" we both smiled and I could feel my cheeks fluster so I acted fast and took a gulp of my drink. "So el I was thinking if maybe if it's ok with you we could start over.." he said almost with an anxious tone as he waited for my response "of course... not going to lie I want my friend back and tell you all the gossip" his smile went down a little bit I didn't think much about it "friends... you mean bestie right" he's smile slowly dying down "haha, yes"
We left the park and walked home, we hugged goodbye as I ran to my room and started my new song called "I don't miss you"