DUALS - JENSOO - english version

JK

"Ruby Jane, did you miss class again? It's been almost a week, what's going on?" my mom knocks on the door and I sigh, sticking my head under the pillow.

"Cramps, a lot of cramps. Tomorrow I'll go." I force my voice to come out as naturally as possible.

"Wouldn't you should go to the doctor? I can take you." her tone is concerned and this is new to me.

"It's not necessary." I bite my mouth to avoid crying again.

"It's getting dark, I'm going to the market to buy some things and in a few hours I'll be back, okay?"

"Yeah." I close my eyes tightly and take a deep breath. The sound of the jump hitting the wooden floor soon disappears and I'm falling asleep again when my phone rings. It's Rosé, but I don't want to talk to anyone.

I roll over the bed and sigh. I'm so numb with reality that I don't know what to think, do or at least say. Krystal destroyed me. Checkmate was hers. She beat me and in the most amazing way, showing everything to everyone.

If before I was afraid to come out of the closet, Krystal made a point of kicking me out of it, with a glowing and flashing neon sign right over my head. Everyone knows now, everyone must hate or mock me. I'm the biggest joke of that school and nothing is going to be able to change that.

Irene and Rosé came here a few times, but I didn't let them in my room, so I think they ended up giving up on checking on me. I don't judge them, I also gave up on myself.

I hear a slight noise at the balcony door, but I just ignore it. It must be the wind or some bird. My phone starts to ring again and I stick my head under the pillow again.

The noise gets louder and more frequent, forcing me to get up and making me angry. I pull the curtains to see what kind of bird this is and I'm surprised to see Jisoo with her hands on the glass, looking at me carefully.

I look down her body and notice that she looks a little wet, until I realize that it's raining.

My body works on autopilot, because I unlock the door and pull it out, but Jisoo doesn't move, just stares at me.

I try to think of something to say, but when I realize it, Jisoo moves quickly and hugs me tightly. The familiar feeling of comfort and security that only she has, that only now I realized how much I missed her.

"Why are you here?" I remember what happened and I try to push her, but she holds me even closer to you.

"I needed to see you, Jennie." she says softly, her voice hoarse, along with the mixed sensations, of her body being hot and cold at the same time, making me shiver.

"You shouldn't be here."

"Why?" She moves away, looking at me totally confused.

"Everything is over, Jisoo. You saw the humiliation that Krystal put me through, I'm the biggest shame of the year."

"No."

"What do you mean? No?" I shake my head and close the door when the rain gets stronger, pulling the curtains and keeping my back to her.

"I said I would be here at the worst times, remember? I don't usually break my promises." I close my eyes when I hear it.

"Jisoo, I'm scared." I say quietly and feel the tears fall "I'm afraid everyone will hate me and make fun of me. I don't know what to do, I never felt so lost as I do now."

"I'm here, Jennie, and I'm not going anywhere, even if you call the police, I'll stay here." she backhugs me "I didn't come before because I thought you needed some time to organize your thoughts, but I couldn't stand not knowing anything anymore."

"My mom said I need to go to school, but I don't want to."

"Jennie" she turns me around and puts both hands on my face "Even if the whole world hates you, even if you hate yourself, I guarantee you, I'll be the person who will love you, because I love you." my heart races when I hear the last sentence.

"Jisoo, I..."

"Listen to me first" she puts her forehead on mine and takes my hands, intertwining our fingers "I won't leave you even if you tell me to do this, I can't. I was going crazy to miss you, to worry. I was so afraid of you doing something crazy."

"I don't know what to do." I say softly and sigh, biting my mouth next.

"I know, but I'll stay here, following you any way you want to go. I don't know how you felt, but it must not have been easy to deal with."

"I don't know if I dealt with it or if I'm just ignoring it. I don't know anything, Jisoo."

"Do you like me?"

"What?" I look at her confused.

"Are you still in love with me?" she shakes my hands.

"What I feel for you hasn't changed." I say quickly and she smiles.

"So there's something you still know." I roll my eyes when I hear her making fun of such a serious matter.

"I'm serious, Jisoo. What should I do? How am I going to get to school tomorrow? I don't know! I used to occupy a position, but now I don't even know who I'm anymore!"

"I know." She whispers and brings her mouth close to mine, looking at my lips. That nervousness, by anticipation, seems to dominate me.

"Jennie?" my mother's voice, accompanied by the knock on the door, makes me jump back.

"Yeah?" I say breathless with fright.

"Open the door, please." now I'm in a panic and I push Jisoo into the closet, closing it inside. I run to the bedroom door and take a deep breath before opening it.

"Hi, mom." I force a smile and I swear my heart would be able to jump out of my chest at that moment.

"You look pale." she says in a worried tone and enters, approaching the closet.

"You scared me, that's all. I didn't think you would come here." I swallow when I see her walking around the room and I'm still standing by the door.

"I bought some things you like, how about helping me prepare dinner?" She stops by the closet and I just nod in agreement, hoping that she'll leave soon. "I hope you get down quickly."

"I'm just going to take a shower and change." I say quickly and she smiles contentedly as she walks towards me.

"Great, I want you down there in 15 minutes." she stops in front of me and watches me with an amused smile on her face "And you're also welcome to join us, Jisoo." she winks at me before leaving the room.