Quid Pro Quo. TaeKook AU

Neglect

I was laying in bed almost completely asleep when Tae walked into the room and crawled up on the bed. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his temple as I spooned him from behind 

"Kook?"

"Hmm?"

"Can I ask you something?" 

"Mhmm" 

He rolled over in my arms and looked up at me with his eyes a little teary, I suddenly wasn't as tired as I was a minute ago "What's wrong baby?" I carded my fingers through his hair and kissed his forehead as Scabbers jumped up on my pillow 

"I just.. this is stupid. Nevermind" he went to roll away from me but I tightened my grip on his body

"It's not stupid if it has you so upset. Tell me what's wrong my love" I pleaded 

He kissed my chin while his bottom lip trembled, my heart was racing out of my chest as I thought about all of the worst case scenarios "we've been together for almost three years. A-and for the two years we were together before Rosie, we had sex every single day, or got each other off. And now, in the last six months since Rosie was born we've hardly touched besides kissing here and there, or a smack on the ass or something. I just feel like..am I not good enough anymore? Am I boring now? Am I unattractive? Is all of this a little too domesticated for you? I didn't bring it up sooner because honestly, I thought we were just too busy. Busy with the baby, busy with the restaurant, busy with the household stuff. But now, I'm just feeling a little..neglected. And, I know that's selfish" 

My eyes stung as they began to water. The love of my life, the man of my dreams, the man that holds my entire being in the palm of his hand was feeling neglected and unwanted, questioning himself because he needed reassurance that I hadn't given him. 

"Baby" I whispered as I held him tighter and nuzzled my face into his neck, he began to cry harder as he held me just as tight "you are the love of my life. You are sexy, adorable, cute, handsome, gorgeous, completely perfect inside and out. Please do not ever doubt yourself like this again okay? I'm sorry that I haven't been here for you physically. I honestly, I haven't put much thought into it. The kisses and cuddles we have, the talking in bed every night, lounging with Rosalind, spending time together as a family, it all means so much to me that my sex drive just, took the back burner. Yeah, I get horny, but then something happens, or I'm too tired to initiate anything and would rather hold you while we sleep. It's not that I don't want you, or crave you, trust me when I tell you that I do" I kissed his lips before continuing 

"You're everything to me. Everything I have ever always wanted and want for the rest of my life. I wish you had told me sooner my love, I could have fixed this before you got so worked up. I didn't mean to ever make you feel this way. I promise I'll make sure it never happens again. Even when I'm old and wrinkled and my dick shrivels up" I chuckled making him laugh as he wiped his face "do you want that? My old shriveled cock and dangly wrinkly balls?" 

"Yes" he laughed with a snort before he kissed my lips, giggling as I blew a raspberry on his lips 

"Good. I'll make sure you can use them then, even if I need a whole bottle of viagra for a two pump orgasm" I laughed as I wiped the tears from his face "I love you Taehyung. And I will gladly go back to fucking your brains out on a daily basis" I kissed him again "starting tomorrow because honestly I'm just so fucking tired" I chuckled making him laugh again 

"I love you kookie. I'm sorry that I kept this bottled up"

"Don't apologize, you can't help the way you feel. I'm sorry for ever making you think that you're anything less than perfect. For making you think I don't want you, when you're all I'll ever want" I kissed his lips softly "I love you baby"