My Unhappy Guy

IKALABING-TATLO

Nandito na ako ngayon sa kwarto. Nasabi ko na rin kay Troy yung tungkol sa pag-uusap namin nila Mommy.

Ilang minuto na ang nakalipas pero wala pa rin siyang reply. Baka may ginagawa, baka nasa C. R. or baka kumakain?

Maya-maya ay biglang nag-ring yung phone ko.

Troy's calling....

Agad ko naman 'tong sinagot.

"Hello? Troy?" paninigurado ko kung si Troy ba siya o hindi. Ewan ko ba, after nung incident dati nung si Troy pala yung may hawak sa phone ni Tiffany ay lagi na akong nagtatanong muna bago ako magsabi ng kung ano-ano.

"Hello, Kate? Yes, this is Troy. Uhm, until now na f'feel bad pa rin ako sa nangyari kanina. Hindi naman sa ayaw kitang kantahan, gusto ko lang kasi sana na kapag narinig mo akong kumanta e mag-isa ka lang. Mag-isa ka lang ba ngayon?" sunod-sunod na paliwanag ni Troy sa akin. Hanggang ngayon pala ay iniisip pa rin niya 'yon kahit na sinabi ko na kanina na okay lang talaga ako.

"Yes po, mag-isa lang ako ngayon. Bakit mo natanong?" agad na tanong ko naman sa kaniya

Ilang segundo rin ang lumipas bago siya magsalita ulit. Hindi pala, 'magsalita' is not the right word pala, kasi he's not just simply speaking, he's singing.

Now playing: The way you look at me by Christian Bautista

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up too

I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word
'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me

It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be

I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze a moment in my mind
It'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still
'Cause, baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

I don't know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me
The way you look at me

Sobrang ganda ng boses niya. Tipong para akong lumulutang sa ulap. And the lyrics? Sobrang nakakakilig. Enebe, Troy? Masyado mo naman na atang ginagalingan.

"Thank you, Kate. For making me feel that I am loved. Thank you for understanding me. Thank for making me happy. I love you" hindi pa man ako nakaka get over sa kilig na dala ng pagkanta niya ay may dagdag pa siya na matatamis na salita huhu. Tell me, nakakamatay ba yung sobrang pagkakilig?

"I love you too, Troy. Thank you for doing this. I really appreciate it" my voice almost cracked 'cuz I'm getting emotional right now. Rinig ko naman yung mahinang pagtawa niya. Napaka-bwisit.

"Anyways, kumusta yung pag-uusap niyo nila Tita? Nasabi mo na ba?" biglang tanong naman niya sa akin

Kinuwento ko lahat ng nangyari kanina at mga napag-usapan namin nila Mommy. Syempre sobrang saya ni Troy sa balita ko. Nabanggit ko rin sa kaniya na pinapapunta siya dito nila Dad. Agad naman siyang um-oo. Sa sobrang excited nga niya, gusto na agad pumunta ngayon. Pinigilan ko lang.

Hindi na namin napansin na halos umabot na ng dalawang oras yung call namin. Kung magkwentuhan kami ay para bang hindi kami nagkita kanina. But I'm happy, very unusual kasi na siya yung nagk'kwento. Madalas kasi ay nakikinig lang siya sa akin.

We just talked about our future plans. Gusto raw niya after namin grumaduate at makapag-ipon for 2 years, magpakasal na raw kami. Agad naman akong pumayag sa suggestion niya, at sinabi ko na gusto ko sa Ice Land kami tumira okaya sa Switzerland. Balita ko kasi 0 crime rate doon, kaya perfect place talaga to build a family.

"Sure, babe. Kahit saan mo pa gusto. Kung gusto mo sa ibang planeta pa e. Okay lang sa akin, basta ikaw yung asawa ko" mapang-asar na sagot naman niya sa akin

Kung nagtataka kayo kung bakit babe na yung tawag niya sa akin, napag-usapan na rin kasi namin kung ano yung endearment namin. Madami kaming naging suggestion pero sa huli ay babe ang napili namin.

Sobrang saya ng puso ko ngayon. Ganito pala yung pakiramdam nang nagmamahal. Plus, supportive pa sa amin yung parents and friends ko. I couldn't ask for more, except for one, I just really hope our relationship will last. I know na masyado pang maaga, pero desidido na ako na ang taong kausap ko ngayon ang gusto kong makasama habang buhay.

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10 pm na ngayon at naputol na rin yung call namin ni Troy. Nakahiga na ako ngayon sa kama ko, pinipilit ang sariling matulog. Pero kahit anong pwesto ang gawin ko ay buhay na buhay pa rin yung diwa ko.

Kaya napagdesisyunan kong tumayo na lang, kinuha ko yung diary at ballpen ko. Isusulat ko lahat ng magagandang nangyari ngayong araw.

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Dear Diary,

Today is the day that Troy and I got official. He proposed to me in the middle of a huge crowd. He was holding a bouquet of pink roses with my favorite chocolate, Ferrero Rocher. Written on the bouquet are the words "you want to be my girlfriend?". He was also holding a pink balloons where the words "If you say yes, I promise to make you happy" are written. And when I thought that's it, he kneeled and gave me a promise ring. It was a magical moment. I feel like we're filming a movie LOL.

My friends and I decided to go to Tiffany's house after class. We just ate and sang. Except for Troy, all of them were surprisingly a good singers. God knows how badly I want to hear his voice, but as we all know, singing in front of many people is not his thing.

But surprisingly, he called tonight and he sang Christian Bautista's the way you look at me. His voice was sooo good and I felt how much he cares about my feelings. He just proved that he will do anything just to make me happy.

There are no word to describe how happy I am right now. I finally had a chance to be with the person I love. I am also blessed to have an understanding parents and a supportive friends. I really can't ask for more.

Troy, you have no idea how much I love you. I hope that when you have a chance to read everything I've written about you, you will feel the overflowing love that I have for you. Thank you for bringing joy to my life. I'm hoping that even after we die, we'll cross paths again in our next life.

Love, Kate.

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