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Chapter Thirty Two

Chapter Thirty Two.

"You don't enter something to come second."

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The pain I was feeling inside was foreign feeling, only because I didn't think seeing someone who has been hurting me so much despite all my efforts would hurt as much as it did. I wanted to be angry at her, for not listening to me and not doing things by the book and lying and scheming and making people think that my family is just a bunch of rotten broke scums. But I just didn't feel like this was the time. Not when she's laying there, bandages all over her limbs and is barely conscious. Not when the beeping sounds of the monitor is loud and proud in this room.

I almost lost her. The one and only older sister in my life all because of her ways. I almost buried someone I wouldn't even think I'd have to bury so early and all of that for what exactly? For money? Status? What?

I haven't cried though since I came in here. I couldn't. I just wanted to stare at her with all my unanswered questions. Slap her too. But I instead just continued sitting there wondering how She'll take the news of losing her baby. How it would even feel to go through such pain.

A hand goes onto my shoulder. It's Bangi. An exhausted looking Bangi who just gives me a small side smile and then allows his face to drop again.

"Dr Mphela said we should head home and get some rest. I think that would be the best option right now."

He's right. We've been here since past 02h00 in the morning and now it's around 06h00 . I get up and we head out, with the promise to be informed when she is to wake up from her coma. That heart pleasing assurance had me feeling a tad better.

"I called Thandiwe to cancel your yoga session for today, figured the time isn't right to have her around."
"Thank you my love," I say, my voice low but hopefully still audible.

Its grey and gloomy outside with clear indication of the upcoming rain that we may experience. I don't even know what the weather will be like as the day continued ahead but right now I was certain we might see a few drops. When we get to the palace I feel my mood drop even more as I hope I don't bump into anyone. I wonder if they even got some sleep after everything or...

"What the?" I ask getting to the entrance of our home, bags and plastics in front of our door. Blocking the big entrance. "What is this?" I let Bangi's hand go and head to the things. He excuses himself to go get a guard who would better explain this situation to us.

"I hope you know what to do with all that shit cause I surely would've burned it all to ashes." I hear Khethiwe say and walk up where Bangi once stood.
"What is this?"
"That, is that tramp of a sisters bags and stuff that I had to discard from my house for my own sanity."
"Sanity? Are you the one who hurt my sister in that way?"

She shrugs, not a trace of care in her body.

"Do you know she's laying in that bed now with broken bones. She nearly died and all you have to do is shrug?"
"Ufuna ngihleka yini Zanokuhle? Don't forget that I was the fool here for believe you were family to me after this month went by only for you to sit here and not even warn me about that bitch. You brought this onto yourself. In fact I would've wished she died because that woman has nothing to live for."

What?

I blink away my tears biting back my tongue. She turns and walks off.